Yes, I am in college. But, I still want to commit suicide.
I have no life and no friends. I have no job, and I was raised with a silver spoon in my mouth, per se. But now, the spoon is out of my mouth because of the unfortunate situation of my mom losing her job that she loves permanently. That job of my mom made myself not care about my spending and my lifestyle. I do not do ANYTHING beneficial to my life, and now all of my family is disappointed of me. I wish I was raised strictly, like getting a job as soon as I was legal to get one so I can appreciate the value of money. I just started to realize that now that I am in college, with no money to pay for it.
Even when (or if) I graduate, I have no confidence in life to stand out of the real world. I am watching golden gate bridge suicide videous, and I am telling myself that I should be the person jumping down. I think they are now happy because they don’t have to worry about his/her own life or someone else’s. I WISH I WAS THAT PERSON.
I do not know what the future holds for me. No matter how successful or unsuccessful I will become, I promised to myself that I will give my physical life away no questions asked. Only if I can give my body and life to someone who desperately needs it, I will in a heartbeat.
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im in the same situation. it be nice to talk more, if u want send me an email.please? im kinda desperate to talk.. thele93@hotmail.com is my mail. i hope u get this
Hey there, I barely have friends or dont have any because of my life. So Im in the situation of no friends and diliked of my family. It would be nice to talk to more people. my email is AlexUchina17@hotmail.com Hope u get this and we can chat
Alex_Uchina17@hotmail.com this is the right email
I got the stricter raising slightly, got the job as soon as one came up and am in colage tho dropping out, and im still on the sight wishing i could die too… tho i think its admiral to give up a life based on the material, i hope it helps u to feel better but i think u need to address why exactly u want to jump, anything else is just a tempory fixer…