These days you hear about self harmers cutting because they’re depressed or suicidal or get that rush to feel alive, but today, are there self harmers who just do it for the pleasure or like to watch the blood pour out of you?? i self harm because im depressed not because i like to watch the blood or anything. do people do that? just because they like blood or that feeling??
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I feel its the adrenaline rush that keeps me.coming back for.more
I do like watchkinq the blood come down me but that’s not why I do It.It’s the same reason you do It.
By the way love the name!
The pain of self harm causes a balanced release of pleasure chemicals in the brain.
Similar to the feeling you get when you come inside from the heat to a cold air unit.
The contrast of the pain and pleasure can be addictive.
Ive never gotten an adrenaline rush from it. It just makes me feel better afterwards.
Its all the same for me. I feel a rush, I like seeing the blood, I love the feeling, and I do it cause I’m depressed. I started cause I’m depressed and I do it to get my mind off whats going on in my life and the emotional pain I’m going through.
Oh i love watching the blood dribble down my arm, its mesmorizing! I do it mostly whem i am numb, when my head is empty and i cant even think straight, when nothing makes sense and everything hurts so much.. Like for me my arm feels like lead and it throbs… But my head is empty.. I cant think, feel numb.
I dont reaooy get a rush from it, it calms me down, clears my head allows me to sleep….
Many of times i have woke up covered in blood not remembering doing it, now thats scary.
Anyone else dead paranoid about their scars?
yeah im paraoid of my scars crimson, i got 2 inches long cuts on my arm, white and clear as day! people say my skin colour is the perfect tan, not black or white like olive skinned. i worry about it every day! long slevved same outfit at school and stuff, once i cut with a serrated knife and i did it too deep and so painful i gritted my teath and cut cut cut back and forth, i cut deep and nealy went to the hostipal, so much blood and i had to stitch it myself quickly or i would of had to be rushed to hostipal
I call mine my zebra print, i got tons of scars..nobody notices them, but i am really paranoid that they can see them.
The Guardian has written a post imaginatively entitled ‘The Cutter’ which might have the answer as it’s SP’s definitive guide to cutting.
Yes I am a wizard when it comes to naming posts! Lol
My thinking of course was to dispel the myth that cutting is suicide, and to quiet those voices telling you all to stop cutting.
Don’t rush into giving up a way to cope like cutting if there isn’t another suitable replacement.
It’s very true that the endorphins released when cutting can become crucial to your ongoing safety.
What about holding ice. That help anyone?
Dont really cut much these days and the scars i am referring to were my early cuts, before i knew what i was doing. For me personally, taking a looooooong hot shower usually works to stop the “urge”
Ice never worked for me duke, but snapping a band against my arm did, also drawning cuts with red pen worked once or twice
Hot sauce or the green hot paste you use on sushi works for some, on the tongue.
Masturbation is good to, releases similar neurotransmitters.
Exercise is great but hard to ge into the habit.
Because its all classic conditioning, it takes a while to substitute on for the other.
There must be treatments out there, hypnosis or acupuncture. Obviously, if everyone keeps quiet about it nothings going to be done. I smoke but my brain is so frazzled it’s impossible for me to become addicted to nicotine. Even with the amount I smoke and the length of time I’m I can go days without one and feel no different. So I don’t know whether people are more sensitive but being like me is nothing to shout about.
As Guardian said we have conditioned ourselves that when we feel a certain way the only release is cutting, you then have to change the idea that other things can give you a release too. Personally i have a superhot shower, i sit on the base and let the water cascade down.. Or igo for a run… Run until my chest wants to explode..
@duke : i quit smoking a year ago, i dont miss it at all, half my family still smokes and modt of my friends.. I find distraction or removing yourself from where there thoughts occured helps me personally
It’s I suppose my form of self harm a lot of people do it. Binge on booze and cigarettes. I don’t intend to live forever anyway. I think I’ve lost some of my looks because of it because I put on weight. Im still slim but not happy with myself. It always felt temporary but when things never improve… I still have some hope, that one day I will be the person I want. I’m supposed to look impressive and be fearless and when things got worse I felt I lost some ability. It’s me who can turn things around but when your broken down it’s harder because you don’t possess the ammunition you perceive as essential to the task. It’s also lazyness but when you feel tired all the time for no reason it’s difficult to force the issue. A lot of the girls who cut look halfway decent so maybe it’s a psychological problem too. But there are lots of things that we do people find absurd. Who wants to die right.
I have many forms of self harm, alot of them i do without even thinking about it, i do it everyday to the point now it is normal, its a part of me. By this i mean i binge eat (just devoured 7chocolate bars 2 cheese toasties and i am going to eat a bowl of cereal very soon) but i will then hardly eat for days after without realising. I constsntly fidget rarely sit (standing burns more calories). I bite the inside of my lip.. Pull my hair out… This includes eyebrows, eyelashes, headhair… Worst bit is i dont even realise im doing them until after i have done it, almost robotic
Crimson
Yeah, I either over eat or under eat. Genetically I can never become fat or at least I hope not. But I was sitting in the hospital and the women next to me was talking to her friend and she said whenever she had a setback she would buy 20 cigs and cans. I felt like saying to her ‘me too’ but I was too shy.
Duke,
Same here, i just got back from holiday and i managed to loose weight but weirdly was eating more than normal.. I even had dessert most days… At home i never eat dessert!
Mind you i did manage to accidentally overdose and spent three days in bed ill!
I’m bored out my brains. I have to wait over a week until I get paid so im on here when I should be out there on a drunken adventure 🙁
Awwww, boredom sucks, im still trying to get used yo being back home. I yelled at my mum for driving on the wrong side of the road… But infact she was correct i just forgot i wasnt on holiday anymore… I keep forgetting to do things too… Having no money sucks, all mine has gone on my little girl its her birthday in 2 ish weeks.. Baught her presents and paid for her party today… Im poor now 🙁 lol x
Money well spent though. You will never get these years back.
I think we have hijacked Who am I’s post. Hope she doesn’t mind.