I don’t know what to do with my life anymore, I honestly don’t want to die, at least not anymore, but I don’t want to live like this anymore either. For the past couple of days I’ve been considering running away, that solution seems perfect for me, I would be alive but I would also be living a different life, and it doesn’t even matter if that life would be hard and I would have to struggle because anything’s better than where I am now, the only problem with that is that I’m only 14, I’ll be 15 in a month but that doesn’t really change anything, I don’t have anywhere to run to. Don’t get me wrong my parents love me and I love them, but I just feel like I don’t belong here, like I’m trapped and I have no way to get out. This country that I live in, my family, my school it’s all wrong, being here makes me depressed and miserable. And I’m slowly becoming this machine that goes on autopilot and has no feelings, and that’s the last thing I want to be, It’s like I’m always on autopilot, I talk, I eat, I walk but while I do that my mind is somewhere else, and I’m slowly stopping caring about the people who I always cared about, my best friend, my grandfather, my aunt they’re family but I feel just so awkward around them it’s like the only reason I talk to them is because I have no choice. And you know when the last time I laughed was? And I mean really laughed, not those fake laughs when you laugh just because you know it’s appropriate to, well I don’t remember when that was. I don’t know what to do, I want to run away but I have nowhere to run, I don’t want to live like this anymore but I don’t want to die either. I live in a small country in Europe and my dream was and still is to live in America, be an actress but my parents would never let me do that and I don’t think that I could ever do anything else. I honestly think that I could be happy and not depressed and considering suicide all the time if I ran away. What should I do? Should I run away? if yes then where should I go?
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if it makes you feel better, i guaranty im more socially awkward than you :>
and please dont run away
dear you don’t need to think too much
just fight well
you can’t run away
you can’t run away from your problems
you r just 14 nd this is just the begining
you gotta face so many problem ahead in your life
so all you gotta do is fight well
because when life puts you in trouble
“don’t say–why me
just say–try me”
and don’t get upset if you fail
atleast you should try your best
and why you think so dat your parents won’t allow you to fulfil your dream
at present you think so but when they will have trust on you
they will surely allow you
so just fight well
you can’t run away from your problems
just perish it out
and then see where you stand:-)
I feel like I understand you completely. I dream of running away too, but I live in America and I feel like I might belong in Europe, like nobody here understands my soccer obsession, but thats not the only thing. Anyway my plan is to wait until I’ve finished some things (high school) and travel during the summer in the meantime. I really love this website http://www.runawayguide.com/runaway-travel-guides/how-to-runaway-from-home/ but I don’t recommend running away until youre older and have planned a lot
– to feel like you don’t belong where you live
– loss of connection with people, even people you used to feel close to
– serious lack of passion, you feel like you’re turning into a robot
– the hyperactive, wandering mind
– a growing need to run away
I can relate to that .. I’m 24 and started going through a ‘personality change’ like 6 years ago
let me ask you a question:
do you ever get a feeling of wanting to ‘go home’, but you feel like home isn’t somewhere on this planet ?
kate can we please meet?
Wondering if it’s Belgium your living in ;). Can relate to what you feel very much and running away is all I ever think about, often packed my backpack but I know I wouldn’t be able to do that without knowing how much pain I’d cause my mother.