EDIT: Â My only thought was dying, I really didn’t consider the feelings of the person that would be driving the vehicle (obviously). I’m sorry. Â I’ll come up with something else then.
I haven’t eaten in a while, I mean, why bother to when I’m just going to die anyway. I thought long and hard about how to do it, I’m just not sure how much of an accident it will look like. No one is to know I’m doing it on purpose, that I want to die. That will only complicate things if I fail and end up in some hospital with a couple of broken bones and a whole lot of questions I can’t answer. No, I’ve got it all planned. My chances of dying are much higher if my body is weak, I figure.
I’ll pretend I’m going to the store. I will have my walkman and the music on full blast, my hair will be in my face (you know, the wind blew it there), I won’t have heard the car coming. Everyone speeds on that street, it won’t be much of a surprise, especially since I didn’t use a crosswalk. It will all just look like some big accident.
The only thing I feel bad about is whoever ends up hitting me. I hope they’ll be as carefree as I. I’m just another person among billions of others. I hope they don’t mind. Really, I hope they think of it as helping someone.
Just a bit longer. I just need an excuse to go to that store. I’m sorry for breathing your air for just a bit longer but don’t worry, soon enough it will all be over.
It would have been nice if I had been able to help someone, anyone at all before I go. That’s probably the only regret I’ll have. That and breathing your air.
4 comments
That is HORRID. How could you care so little about the guilt you’re going to inflict upon the poor person who would hit you? How have you not thought that, in an attempt to swerve and not hit you, you could personally be responsible for the death of innocent people passing by? If you’re going to do something so hurtful to your family and your friends, there’s no reason to hurt even more people.
I have no friends. My so called family would also not be effected by this, they have much more important things to do. Also, that is why i’m not just going to go jump out in traffic. I would much rather wait for one speeding car rather than just jump out in front of a bunch of cars and have someone else get hurt. I don’t wish to hurt anyone else but my other attempts have failed me, this is all I have left.
If you think I’m horrid, then you’re proper in thinking so.
I agree this is a really silly way to even consider doing it, you might hope that the driver is “carefree” and won’t be bothered by it, but chances are the person would have nightmares the rest of their life of hitting a pedestrian and killing them. If you want to end your life that’s one thing but don’t ruin someone else’s.
hi there,
i can completely relate to this. I have wanted to die for quite some time and i see getting car as the best way. i break my neck hopefully in the process, i experience pain and nothing else. however as ive come closer to doing it, (i have also tried) i have thought about the driver. What if i kill the driver when they kill me? or worse i kill them and i live? i’d feel something so unimaginable. i’d be in even worse pain. Also what if i didn’t die, do i apologize to the dirver? Also please think about this, if it is ruled an accident then the driver WILL be charged with a fine and possible jail time. They’ll be charged with murder, do you think that your life is that bad that it’s worth possibly messing someone els’s up for the rest of their life? (i did too want it to look like an accident, but considering that they might get charged and stuff i ruled out the accident) please don’t make it an accident, either do it and make it obvious it’s on purpose, or find a different method so only you can be to blame.