My name is Pete.  Everyday I think about that day.  I was reminded again today as I watched the news of Junior Seau.  I pray for his family and his children.  I had a difficult childhood especially high school.  Little did I know that once high school is over a whole new life begins.  No more harrassment no more bullying.  I have read many posts on this site and I decided to write today!!!
On May 20, 2009, I got a phone call from my dad.  He informed me that something was not right!  It was a weird phone call because my dad nevers calls me.  All of my communication with my parents was thru my mom.   My mother went out into the backyard put a small caliber gun to her head and pulled the trigger.  I miss her and believe in my heart if she knew all of the pain that she has caused all of us she would never have done it.  People ask why? Did she leave a note?  Was she depressed?  Was something wrong?  All stupid questions in my mind.  All I know is this!!  Everyone in this world matters.  For anyone out there that feels there is no way out please contact me.  My mom mattered and so do you!  I am married with two children age 42.  My mother was 59 when she decided to take her life almost 3 years ago.  She and my father were married for 42 years.  I dont know why!  All I know is that I miss her and wish I could have five minutes with her to tell her how much she is loved!!!