I am so sick of how people treat me. I’m always put down. I’m yelled at for things I didn’t do. I’m lied to all the time. I only have one person who truly cares. He is everything but I have never met him in real life. I have known him for 7 years though. He is amazing. He always knows what to say. But I want someone to actually care about me in my life. Someone that would see my wrist and cry instead of judge. I want someone to make me their first choice. I am sick of always being back up. I always seem to mess things up. No matter what it is always my fault. I’m so close to killing myself. I really don’t want to live. This pain is unbearable. I’m not good enough for anyone. Sorry need to get that off my mind.
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I know how you feel, and ive always stood up to people who think they can control who you are.
But you need to set aside some time to yourself, and reflect on your life. I wouldn’t advise you end your life based on how other people are towards you.
There is a whole world out there, i was stuck in a rutt, going to a cheap bar in town and drinking 4 nights a week just to escape.
I eventually decided to escape that phase of my life, and just give myself some time.
Im not trying to discourage you to not end your life, as you are entitled to do so, just as i am. But please don’t let other’s be the death of you.
You are worth so much more than that.
I know I shouldn’t let others win and be the reason I die but just what they do and say hurt and I can’t take it anymore. I’m 16 and I’m addicted to alcohol. I get it every chance I can. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
No need to apologize. That’s what we are here for. To listen and to get things out. We care if you need to talk you can email me wolfhomepup@yahoo.com and “Someone that would see my wrist and cry instead of judge” I know what you mean there too. But it’s not just my wrists anymore… >.< someone said something that hurt me on a really deep level and I couldn't get it out of my head. Had to cut it out. Now there are scars all over my arms.. It did help for a while but then I still couldn't get it out of my head..
It means a lot that you understand. I always feel like I am alone in this world. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I really don’t. I don’t feel like anybody cares if I am anyway.
I know just how you feel love. Everything that goes bad is made out like it’s your fault? You try to do something good and it backfires? Going through a day feeling self-conscience about your wrists or whatever part you cut? I’ve been there, am still there and trust me it gets no easier. But I’m sure you’ll find that one person who can brighten your day with a hello and make you feel like the only person that matters. We all do at one point or another. And if you need a friend I’ll be more than happy to listen. Good luck in life.
I have a guy friend like that and we are so close people say its creepy. But I’m in love with him and he doesn’t feel the same. He talks about all these other girls. I just don’t know what to do. He never makes me his 1st option I’m always last. I just wish that someone would actually care about my feelings for once. Nobody does.