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I used to enjoy staying under my blankets for a while after I wake up in the morning. Now I can’t lie down awake, not even for a minute, I keep thinking about stabbing myself in the heart or the back of the neck or an eye. I punch myself hard in the chest or head pretending I’m stabbing myself. I have to get up the moment I wake up, I can’t stand it.

So this morning (here is morning) I saw some post I liked (this one and this one amongst others) and I got sad. Duke is right. I imagine an ancient race of noble men endlessy roaming, walking unnoticed amongst humans, growing poorer in number, self-aware of the doomed destiny of their kind, yet carrying an aura of wisdom and kind-heartedness that will go lost after them when they finally choose to leave.

I’m not strong enough even to keep my pieces together, but I still sense I could do my part, I must do something.

Maybe I can print a thousand fliers with only “If you feel broken and alone, call this number or write me an email” or something like that, and post them around the city. I guess I’ll just get a lot of prank calls, but if I manage to help even one of this lost children it will be worthwhile, and maybe helping him/her I’ll find the peace I seek too.

Do you think it’s a good idea? What should I write on the fliers and where should I post them? I think universities, bus/train stations, other places where lonely people are forced to go?