any advice.._.

So.. Im new to this whole site.. but i have no one to talk to .-. and i just need that? So basicly.. im 15.. and well i wasnt raised in a broken home, or in a bad area or anything like that. But when i look in the mirror.. i just hate what i see x-x im fat, and ugly, and disgusting.. no guy has ever tried anything with me, never had a boy friend, never had a kiss, i havent had anything. and i go to school, im only a freshman, but i see all these couples.. and i go places and see couples.. and i just want that. I want somone to love me? I have been avoiding school for the past few months like i miss a few days EVERY week. and it affects my grades horribly. I used to have a 3.5-3.8 Gpa.. now im not even at 1. Im failing in life._. So I found this.. site? or game thing.. like virtual talking and like your own little charecter.. and i made someone friends and yeah i know im pathetic.. but its the only pplace i feel accepted, and cared for? anyway.-. I put fake pictures.. because i was afraid id get rejected even there.. and iv been on it for about a year now, and i met people and made friends their that i love, like we talk on the phone, and get along, and all of it.. and i even “date” people.. and i know for a lot of people they say its stupid because yea i know its not real.. but when u text someone, and talk to them for hours upon hours, it starts to feel real? So anyway.. i got with this guy ._. his name is zach.. and he made me so happy, like he made me forget about how much i just hated myself, and my life. He owuld text me everysingle morning.. all day long, all night.. and i love him.. and i understand hardly none of you will get it.. but i did, i fell in love with him, and we talk about being together for real, and having a life together.. and i want that with him.. but the thing is._. is he thinks im some skinny blonde girl, when in reality im not.. im nothing like that >_< but he still filled the gap of loneliness i had.. til about 2 weeks ago he totally stopped talking to me.. and i got so worried and scared, and even more depressed, i cry myself to sleep.. everysingle night, and it isnt a couple tears cry.. its that cry where to have to shove your face into a pillow so no one can hear.. after a week of silence i got a text from his number, it was a guy claiming ot be zachs best friend.. telling me zach was in a crash and in the hospital.. i talked to his “friend” for about 2 days.. and he suddenly stopped answering.__. i have no i dea whats going on.. its been another week since i’ve heard anything..and my heart is just so broken..everytime im alone my thoughts and memories over whelm me.. and i just cry, i dread having to go to bed because i know that before i fall asleep im going to cry for a good hour.. and theres nothing i can do.__. he filled my life with the happiness i didnt have.. and now i dont know what to do.. i havent gone to school, i havent left my room, my parents assume im just ‘fat and lazy’ but its not it ._. im just hurting >_< people are telling me that he might of gotten bored of me.? and just decided to stop talkin.. but i know him, and i know how he is and he would never do anything like that ._. not to me.. I just wish i was never born .. im so worthless.. that saying that ‘everyones good at somthing’ it doesnt apply to me.. because im not good for anything ._. and i hate my life so much..