A short post, because I am about to go to work and spend a few pointless hours doing something there now everyone is going home (so I can be alone).
Anyway, trying to buy time, moments, minutes and sometimes seconds. Now I find though it is not enough, this isn’t going to work in the long run. How can we buy time (and I do not mean economically) to keep ourselves alive when the pain is too great?
Have tried working, traveling, buying things, hurting myself, putting myself to sleep and just literally wasting time, but when those things pass, the pain remains, and it hurts like hell.
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If it helps, I feel the same way
This may or may not resonate with you and I hugely appreciate and value your pain…I feel you big time. What if ths pain is okay, and what if you did nothing to try to change it but just be with it and make friends with it, cause it is part of you. What if you don’t judge it, and let it be…by approaching it that way, your letting yourself be too and you deserve peace. If you decide to perceive it in this way, you keep yourself free from resistance and you flow with whatever it is. It’s not punishment…I thought that for a long time…when you flow with it, it’s just what it is and you naturally become one with it in your own way. The process of this approach is a way you may want to consider. It has helped me, so I thought I would share. Hope this provides some relief and release for you. Sometimes the key is to do nothing, that way you only have one issue. We make things harder for ourselves when we challenge and resist whatever we are experiencing but when we just observe, notice and allow gentle attention to what is coming up in our consciousness, we are more in-flow with ourselves. Then you may not notice the pain so much. All the best!
Depends upon your tolerance for pain. Guess thats why people turn to drugs, for pain relief and to buy time. Our spirirts are crying out for justice and truth. This world crushes what we seek. Why badness rules and goodness gets crushed I still cant undersand. One thing, goodness doesn’t seem to ever die completely, just goes into hiding.
Softsoul is very very wise.
this is the post I was looking for to cheer me up or something. I have such a hard time leaving work at the end of the day. It’s like, “ok, what now?” I’ve sunk so many unpaid hours into my job and all because I’m too depressed to care about enjoying my free time. It’s such a struggle to fill the time with good times when you have a permanent frown. so much easier to just go to work and slave away till sleep is so close that you can feel it with every blink. I’ve gotten 3 hours in the last 2 days.. good luck everlasting
Hi tphg.
Yes, it is very painful to leave work at the end of the day. Everyone is happy to go home, they probably have someone to go home to. Weekends are also really tough. So working is all I have, but even that hurts for various reasons. I also have trouble sleeping, back home now but just want to go to work again, in 6 hours a new day starts and I canto back to work. Worst period without sleep, 10 days, almost killed me.
Hope that you get some sleep soon