I’ve been cutting myself for a while and I can’t take living anymore
My boyfriend saw his dad get killed and i don’t know how to act around him now that I know because he thinks he’s a waste to the world and a few nights ago he stabbed himself and it’s the day that his ather was killed tomorrow so he’s very emotional and I think I upset him because he ended up crying and begging me not to break up with him but I just asked if he hated me because he was being a jerk
Anyways
When I was 12 I got pregnant and had a child when I was 13 and after that I was super depressed and upset and I got an eating disorder and started cutting myself and doing drugs and drinking also when I was 13 my dad went into the hospital for alcoholism and almost died right in front of me
When I was 14 i was raped by a 21 year old and got pregnant and lost the baby… my heart was broken… I ended up going to a mental facility because I weighed 71 lbs. and I was 5″3 and I also went because I tried to kill myself with overdose but my friend found me
At 15 with all of this behind me I was raped again on December 22 2010 and I was a wreck and still am I can’t stand when people even hug me. In 2011 I watched my brother kill himself by shooting himself in the head
Now I cut, burn, and starve myself and I also tried stabbing myself a few nights ago but I was stopped by my friend. I can’t take living anymore I get beaten up by guys regularly and molested
I wrote a suicide note:
I can’t do it anymore
I’ve been waiting for it to get better
It does not
I love you all
It doesn’t matter I’m gone there’s people just like me
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I thought that being pregnant and giving birth at any age was difficult and painful enough, but at that young of an age…
No doubt about it, you have been through a lot. More than a lot.
I agree, that’s a lot to have been through already in life.
I’m so sorry. That is too much to have gone through at your age. Too much. And I thought that I had been through alot.
THERES NOBODY ELSE LIKE YOU IN THE WORLD. THERES ONLY ONE YOU THATS WHY YOUR SOOOOOOO ((SPECIAL)). STOP HURTING YOURSELF HUN YOUR BABY NEEDS YOU. IF YOU DONT WANT YOUR CHILD TO END UP HAVING THE LIFE YOU HAD SO YOU HAVE TO SHOW HERS THERES A BETTER WAY THAN JUST CAUSING MORE PAIN. THERES A BIG WORLD OUT THERE AND WE NEED >>YOU<< IN IT.
Hmmm. How do you plan on doing it? Hope that overdosing or cutting will be the easiest methods? Certainly the most painful, and you probably don’t want pain anymore. Also, if you go through with finding a way to off yourself, your kid that you had when you were 12 is going to be screwed up psychologically because then the kid will have no mommy or daddy and no one to depend on. Like Listner said, “you don’t want your child to end up having the life you had”. Take care.
i want to be your friend my e mail is ajulieta_77@hotmail.com please dont die you are so young and deserve to live