I’m Through Here Thanks And Hope iT gets Better It CAN Get better

Hi, so I have not posted in six months or more….I want to say that things can get better. My life has turned around and I did it without meds and therapy. I have a stable job (they love me) and an agent wants to read my manuscript. It is night and day for me. I am so glad that I stuck it out, day by day even just three months ago I was still pretty hopeless. But here is the difference, I’ve read about the link between mood and creativity. It is not my fault. Yes, life is hard. I think it is menat ti be hard, I don’t kniow why but even rich people have issues, sometimes more issues. I won’t let people or anyone in this world rob me of my dignity. I took every bit of blame this year that was dished out and swallowed it. I’m stronger now. I won’t do that again, and nit just because things have turned around. In spite of them. If I had killed myself as planned, back in December I would not be around now to hold the literary agent’s card in my hand or to look forward to every day living in my essense, come what may. I deserve a place here. Life is good and so don’t you. Take a dream. Hold tight to it, whether it is just feeling ok or getting a job or getting through a heartbreak and keep getting up. Keep moving the date. You’ll be glad you did. Is life perfect? Nope. I’m still neurotic and still a worrier. I get stressed easy. But I have hope. Love and hugs. M.