Well like the title said, Im about to celebrate one month on my anti depressants.
I feel better, and my friends are noticing a difference. Its a relief. I honestly never thought I could start to feel this much better. I dont remember being able to laugh and smile so much. Its just wonderful.
If I could talk to the boy I hurt so much, I would thank him. I still miss him but im hoping that feeling will fade over time. Hes the only reason I ever got on the meds and im still scared he committed suicide. But I realize as much pain it was to separate myself from him, it was worth it.
The only thing I wish I could stop my self from doing is having these sexual convos with another guy who is a year younger then me. He is my bestfriends ex bf and well…I just feel so dependent on him. One thing at a time I guess
Good luck&Love too all (: