My life sucks i’m 22 had already had numerous atempts all failed for no explaineble reason took a box of sleeping pills nothing happend tried to hang my self rope broke (strong dynema 5 mm thick witch is as strong as steel wire of 7 mm thick) broke for no aparent reason
Now i’m feeling like this again.
moved to an other country to be with my girlfriend left everything behind only took my 12 year old dog
he died few weeks ago one moment he was fine the next he’s laying dead in my arms didn’t get over that yet
and now suddenly with no apperant reason my girlfriend dumped me said she need time to find herself i don’t know why becouse everything was okay our last 2 weeks where the best we had sofar i did have some job isues the last year becouse of the crisis and that people from the philipines are like 70% cheaper than where i come from and the jobs i did get i left becouse it was unsafe (a strong drinking captain for example)
and now everything is coming back from my childhood (i did not have an easy childhood always being abused and beaten by both my dad and my step dad witch i both left for dead now and i actually tell everone i meet or asks me that my dad passed away when i was young)
but now everything is comming back ive got hundreds of metre’s of rope here ive got a drawer full with pills and realy no reason left to life all i cared about is gone my baby witch i got for my 10th birthday passed away between christmas and newyear’s eve my girlfriend dumped me now i’m alone in a country i hardly know anyone no job no friends/family no girlfriend no roof over my head nothing to live for , i only have alot of pain and confusion
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sad story, try listening to eminem, he will make you feel better with hailie’s song, linkin park song valentines day, my name is by eminem try listening to them if you can 🙂
Everything happens for a reason. All of your failed attempts prove that your meant to stay here on earth for a purpose. It might take getting out there and looking for something, or it might just come to you. I’m not going to say I know how you feel or that I can relate to everything you’ve said but someone out there cares about you and no one wants to see someone take their own life.