Dead Person Walking

Hi Trisha, Welcome to our site. I’m happy you found some comfort knowing you aren’t the only going through the same thing or something similar as everybody else on the site. I’m sorry to hear about how things have gone for you. I know myself things haven’t been good for most of my life. I’ve brought myself back from the brinks more times than anybody cares to know. I’ve often wondered why, it seems i keep going through it all again and again. it sucks, it truly does. I’ve wanted to just leave but then i wonder how will things be next year. Will they suck like they do now, will they all better and i’ll have found my true happiness again. Who knows. If we aren’t here tho we will never know. I know my daughter is what keeps me going day after day. she seems so happy in her own world, not knowing about the way humanity really is. personally i’d rather keep them young so they dont learn how much of a effed up world we live in is. How much humanity is out to kill each other and bring each other down. I mean you never hear about the boy that walked granny across the street, but you sure here about the boy that ran granny over crossing the street in a cross walk. I’ve come to belive most people are out for themselves and out to bring down as many people as they can with them. I’ve learned to try and live in my own bubble and kind of ignore everybody else, it’s not easy it really isn’t. it’s lonely at times and it suxks. i joined this site a couple days ago and i dont know if it’s helped me at all but i enjoy helping others so maybe thats my next calling. maybe that’ll bring back my happiness, who knows. All i can say is think about your kids, stick around for them. Think about last time they made you smile, made you happy. It may help. Think positive, stay strong and hold your head high. Feel free to message me anytime on FB, same name as here if you ever wanna just chat and clear your head. Take care.
LB