Tonight I sat in the mirror and told myself how worthless I was how nobody has never and will never love me, Something inside said to end it, I had a bottle or alcohol and a bottle of pills i picked them both up popped a pill in my mouth and thought for a second why do I have to feel like this why do I have to want to take my own life ? Because nobody understands ? Because the nights are sleepless ? because im alone ! Nobody cares i kept saying nobody ever dd just end it ***** , your a dirty slut guys just want to fuck you and thats it your a whore that is all you will ever be. I hate myself and I dont know why . I look in the mirror , I look at my reflection and I dont see or feel anything. Nothing matters right now. whats it going to take? when will i get a break ? why am i so misunderstood why do i feel worthless why am i worthless
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What has left you feeling so worthless and out of hope?
life , just life , bullshit and life
God you sound like me. But you know what I’ve had a new attitude lately. You’re a hurt individual, and all you want is someone to love you, all the sex it’s meaningless right? You do it hoping that one day one of the guys are gonna stay. Right? I did that too. You have to be strong.
Yes that is exactly how it it , But it makes me feel more and more like shit everytime ,
I think you are depressed… Duh
Anyways i feel like that a lot. Went through a breakup that left me empty and cold (somewhat) and i give up too easy. Goodnight.
No one is worthless. Find help and stick with it – (finding the right help can take several attempts but it is worth the search).
I don’t look in the mirror anymore – it helps. Find what works for you – but keep going – take a day at a time if you have to and experiment – I don’t know how to find contentment with yourself – I am still searching but I do know others who have suffered and suffered and worked and worked and come out the other end content. They describe “coming alive again” and every single one of them has said it was worth it.
I don’t know you but I am sure you are a wonderful, worthwhile person who deserves contentment. We all deserve safety and peace.
What you tell yourself over and over becomes a belief…it’s just a thought you keep thinking. You could practice the opposite thought and then that would be a truth for you and you’d feel better over time. Why default to the negative, why not choose the positive? If you have the intelligence to express yourself as you did, you have the capability of making another choice that is in service of your happiness. Best of luck!
Hang in there JustWhyMe. Try to stop doing the things that make you feel worse. It seems like you’ve been looking for answers in men and sex, but if you’re not mentally right, men will only continue to take advantage of you. I hope you find some happiness.