well, I found this side by myself. I am 18 years old girl with no friends..I always try to be nice to everyone. sadly they only come to me when they need help. I’ve been bullied since I was in the kindergarten. my family didn’t care about this..they just said that I can make it. this is made me so stressful. till junior high school I went to home schooled, I admit it was good. but I can’t find any friends. till now, I don;t have any best friend in my life. walk in mall alone, no one stand beside me, I am human too, why all people so mean? is it because of me using thick glasses? is it because I’m ugly? so people feel that I am disgusting?
I thought my mom loves me, but every time she mad at me I can’t see it, it’s like there is a resentment in her eyes..I’m so scared.. one day she ever told me secretly “why dont you just die?” I remember it was on Friday in 2006.
today she was really mad at me cause of something *wont write about it* she threw money to me in public and blame me all the way we went home. I didn’t crying, but inside I cried like a retard. so, I bought 10 pills of aspirin and I want to end everything tonight.
Actually I ever tried to suicide before, but I always awaken. 2 times, I hope this time it works. but deep inside my heart, I’m afraid..
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If u need someone to talk about anything we could talk.
Email is ZekkaSlashed@gmail.com
i feel the same way. I was nothing in highschool and now that I am in the Navy it has only gotten worse and it confirmed that what I went through in high school is what reality for me actually is and will always be. It gets worse as I entered adulthood. I realized that teenhood has a prelude to what I go through now but now the stakes are harder because my bosses favor those that are more good looking and sharp witted and those like me who have nothing to make the Navy look great have a grim reality to face everyday.
I get along with my mom now becuase I am an adult now but when I was a teen she favored my sister way more than me. My dad did as well but he used me for manual labor because I am a dude after all but it was still bullshit because I was cleaning up after everyone.
I feel your pain and your mom should go to Hell for what she put you through.
Hi TanPopo
Though i can’t say i understand your pain exactly – no one can – i do know what it feels like to be alone, to be scared, anxious, depressed and have an atmosphere of hopelessness around me constantly, and to be lost. I find myself on this website because i too want friends, but friends who are more likely to understand my pain and friends whose pain i can share in as well. If you are looking for a friend, I’m here. My email address is outerhaven.bb@gmail.com – so if you would like to know me more personally. Though we have not met, as a philanthropist, i am friends with everyone as i believe the goodness and purity of human connection can help make this world a better place. I am a 17 year old male, and i live in Australia.
Take care of yourself, i hope to hear from you soon
I can’t believe nobody has said this yet- 10 pills of asprin won’t work and is a bad and painful method, I know that isn’t helpful but just a friendly warning saying make sure you research first
FTW0990@gmail.com is my email. Go for it if you need it.
Im an 18 year old girl with no friends also. I have something I want to ask you but can’t ask on here. My email is jessthemessdepp@aol.com Please contact me ASAP.