Hi.. you know my other posts, yeah, them…. well they are  not true, i lie. I do this because i have a sick twisted demented little mind for a bi-sexaul 11 year old boy. Yes, you did read it right, I am 100% Bi-sexual, don’t like it?? Yeah well neither do I. I hate my sexuality. You know deathbug, well it’s funny really because we are so alike, we made sick twisted lying stories that made you fall bad for us, so i would again like to say sorry to all of the people on this site, especially U.N Owen and Holly. I don’t know if they are still alive but i hope with all my heart they are. So now you see me for who I truely am, a 11 year old,bi-sexuall, maybe a bit depressed boy. So please feel free to hate me, infact please do. Say everything and anything you want because all you are doing is adding to the pain so here is a poem i wrote:
I may be the happiest person you know.
I may be the strongest.
Hardly anything breaks me.
But what you don’t know.
Is that when I’m alone, big, fat, juicy, tears form.
And they run down my face.
I hate it.
I get angry at it.
So I get up, wipe them away and continue to be the happy and strong person you all think I am.
I don’t know why it happens.
It just does.
I know, me of all people? Weird right?
Broken in a way.
But whatever.
Everyone’s got their own demons.
                                                                                 And mine are with me here.
So hate me please do, I won’t be suprised if you do too . But maybe I might get enough hate to get me to kill myself, to prove that i am worthless and will cease to exicst. In your case i would hate me too, but remember you are just adding to the HATE. P.S I am a very ugly, tall boy!!
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Dear lost soul, I am sorry for the pain you feel. I look into your eyes and see, not that you are broken or hopeless, but that you’re just trying to find your place in this world.
The way I see it.. there is nothing wrong with being you. You live. You breathe. You learn. You are unique. Why are you upset about this?
I’m suicidal, probably wouldn’t be here if I weren’t.. and I am sure that you know this, but I’ll say it anyways. Most people that kill themselves never really wanted to die.. They just needed to escape the pain.
Something interesting I have learned through careful observation.. we all wear some kind of mask. We all lie. I do. I will sit there and smile with friends or family while the whole time I’m just wondering why. Why am I doing this?
Trust is an interesting thing too. It is harder to trust someone than to love them. Whats the difference? To trust someone is to give them your deepest thoughts and the power to hurt you.. but also the power to help. It’s like taking a chance and oping it does not come back to bite you in the ass.
You have no reason to trust me. I have not been able to earn it, though I hope you give me the opportunity to. You’re welcome to send me an e-mail whenever you need someone to talk with. it’s Savanna.017@hotmail.com , or if you would rather do so here, but I must warn you, I don’t come on this site much. It’s a bit too dreary for me. Have you heard of help.com? I have talked with some very interesting people there. Account is Savanna_ just like here, if you ever want to chat. I’m not an adult. I’m only 15. I am not going to lie to you or feed you inspirational crap either. Just chat. The offer is always there.
By the way, you are a very good writer. I’m sorry the subject is not a more positive one. You outta see my poems.. they are really.. morbid. Do you have any others?
You seem like a very intelligent, creative, yet lost person. I hope you find your way, tough its not always that easy..
Even strong people break down sometimes.
Seriously … you are WAY too young to be definitively and permanently proclaiming your ‘sexuality” … why are you even worried about sexuality at this age? get s skateboard and go to a skate park … go bike riding … go in the forest and build a fort … go to the river and build a damn … have fun! play basketball, build a dollhouse or birdhouse, paint a picture or learn to sew … don’t even WORRY about sex and sexuality at least until you’re about 15 or so.
But no matter WHAT you do and who you are … be honorable and true … nobody “hates” you … and likely nobody here will “hate” you.
fyi – I saw Owen on here a few days ago … and holly maybe back in april
honest dawg
One_Day hates me, and he is an asshole and btw I am 100% sure i am bi-sexual and well yeah, but anybody what a pan-sexual is, someone who has sex with pans???
@life-death I don’t hate you, in fact I barely remember you. And BTW I am a woman. Although I may be an asshole. I don’t even care anymore. Anyway I think Dawg is right. it’s unrealistic for an 11 year old to ‘know’ their sexuality. I recently had sex with a 30 year old gay man. He’d been gay all his life. He ‘knew’ his sexuality since he was a teenager. So what is he doing havign sex with a woman? either way it doens’t matter and no one cares. Just do your thing no need to slap a label on it.