Poem: to my mum..

Nothing’s the matter,
I swear I’m alright..
This pain’s just a phase
Like drinking and cutting,
Feeling absolutely nothing..

Like a storm, the winds will pass
And the rain will turn to shine
And life will seem worth living
Days will be more enduring
You said everything would be alright

I’ve screamed before
A splendid tantrum fitting of my age
And I did everything to tell you
Of the demons that I face
But you just looked so confused
And said they’d go away..

And I was dragged from the house
Shouting into the night
You just wouldn’t stop crying
Till I told you I was fine…

I can never say that you don’t care
I will allways love you
But you just don’t understand
So how could I tell you..

Maybe I’m not okay…
This cant be allright
And this pain wont go away..
No, everything is not fine