today I decided to tell someone I trust about how I’m feeling and how close I’m getting to suicide. And he blew up at me, telling me I was selfish and livin in my own delusional world. Thought it would take some heat off of me having someone know. Just made me feel worse because now I feel like hes gunna see me as broken. And the only thing he could say to me is that I need to see a professional, and not for one second could he understand I’m hurt and just wanting to heal but I want to do it on my own time.
Never gunna tell anyone else I know. Learned my lesson
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I know It’s hard for people to understand If they don’t feel the way you feel but don’t never trust anybody,you qot us!……and hopefully someone you trust In person.
People who have never had depression just don’t understand how hard it feels. Seeing a professional does help if you are willing to co-operate.
You can talk to me anytime you want.
I too know how you feel. I hid my depression issues for over 20 years until it came out. I wish I could say it is all better now, but it isn’t.
One day at a time. Hell, sometimes the goal of an hour seems hard. But, if you wanna talk – I would be happy to listen and try to support you.
Just let me know. I hope you will choose to talk to me today or tomorrow.
James: message me if you want.
I have no friends or interests, but I openly talk about my impending death at work.
I say stuff like “hopefully I’ll get in a fatal accident on the way home,” or how I spend my weekends “hating myself and dreaming of death,” and people just think I have a dark sense of humor. Even people who know I tried to OD in the past, and know that I have to be medicated for life.
These same people will be the ones who need hugs and support and grief counseling. Who need to tell each other “I had no idea!” Who will cry and “miss” me. In the end, that’s all I’ll be: an excuse for attention whores to get more attention.
Does it make me feel more invisible? I don’t even know. Mostly I just hate being allive even more.
“In the end, that’s all I’ll be: an excuse for attention whores to get more attention.”
I like your lucidity