I thought I was better. Until this last month. Everything always crushes you with every pound it has. Everyones fake faces and voices and fake friendships even fake family. I recently started cutting and taking sleeping pills again. Sleep is so much more comforting. Even a nightmare is more peaceful than having to talk to and look anyone in their plastic eyes. I’m back to sleeping 16 hour days and cutting in the shower.
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relapse is a part of recovery, don’t let it discourage you remember what you have learned and fight it,don’t give into it
Thank you. Knowing someone is actually reading what I write helps a lot. I thank you again.
Not all of it is fake. I understand where you are coming from tho. I recently relapsed on roxys and xantax- but fuck if you shoukd let drugs and cutting win. You’re better than that- whether you know it now or not. Hang in there- my best wishes to your recovery
It’s so easy to listen to someone who actually means what they sayGnash y instead of some doctor or something. Thank you you really do he.lp. It really does .
You bet, if you ever need someone to talk to just reach out. I agree with you– It was always easier for me in rehab to speak with people that have actually been through substance abuse, rather than a doctor who’s only studied it. It helps me to know there are other people feeling the way I do as well.
Keep up the good music by the way! I use to play at bars when I was younger, I only did acoustic guitar instrumentals because my voice is no good, and it was wildly unpopular 🙂 But I enjoy the creative release of music. There is pain and soul in your music– which is great to express. Fucked up minds create great music, we’ve been down to the bottom and back up again– that’s why I was so good. hahah
You’re down now. But you will be back up I hope.