The drugs won’t make it better…

I want to share my experience with drug use and how it’s only added to my problems, not take me from reality, not make the pain go away. They only add pain.

When I was 13, I started smoking marijuana in my 8th year of school . No big deal to me, even today I still do, but it stopped helping my depression awhile ago. I quit for a bit, and became a ‘goody goody’ per say. In grade nine, I believe I was still 13 , perhaps just trned 14 I started to smoke weed again, since it was fun and all my nerdy friends started to hate me. I became a stoner. That following year, grade ten. I started to experiment with ecstasy . The drug had me instantly, from the first pill I ever popped. I was inlove. At first it was amazing, I was doing it every day cause it was just so fun I never wanted to come down from the high. It started to become an addiction, I wanted it so bad I would roll change just to get a pill. By then one pill didn’t do anything, so i started snorting them or parachuting pills to get the high faster with less. After awhile it went from one pill every day to 2 … To 4 … And some nights I’m surprised I lived for. I was only 95 sum pounds, and I would be popping , snorting or parachuting pills all night. I am not even sure , but I think the most or done was 6-10 pills.. But people have died from 1. Soon it wasn’t fun anymore, the drug took away all my happiness, the day after doing it I always felt like shit in a bag, that’s why I’d take more. Thinking it would help fill the void the drug caused. It never did. After a long battle I finally stopped doing E , it was one of the harder things I’ve done. But not long after I was looking for my next fix, and someone showed me MDMA. I would go back and forth from cocaine and MDMA.. But MDMA was no Bette than E , none of it helped , just sent my spirqllibg deeper and deeper into a hole of despair and darkness.

Drugs will not help you, fuck I don’t think anything can help me. But all I know is my experience with drugs only made everything worse…

P.S – I’ve been clean from E for a year now and a good 6-7 mints from any other drugs, and yes it has helped not being on them. But weed I’ll never quit I don’t think. . It dies help sometimes.. But not really