honestly.
i cannot live this way, with my mind battering me into constant disintigration.
i am living for the peace of mind of my loved ones. they’d be destroyed if i killed myself. or so they say. i think that they’d be shocked (by the unexpectedness of exactly when it’ll happen) and saddened, then grieve, then pick up and continue on with their lives. with what they consider to be life.
my life cannot continue like this. i am finished. i am exhausted.
depression kills. put your family and friends on notice: this disease must be *taken seriously*. we can never ‘pull ourselves up’, ‘snap out of it’… if i told my mother to ‘start thinking positive!’, as she tells me frequently, i doubt that her rampant heart disease/renal failure/brain tumor would back off and let her live a tranquil life. i have a disease that will take my life. that is the truth.
tired. time to rest. then, goodbye. no harm intended. just seeking peace, at last.
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THIS IS NOT A DISEASE!!! I’m sorry that you’ve been hurting for so long!
“be as strong as you can be. YOU ARE WORTHWHILE! you are!
please believe me: i know what it takes to live through non-stop suicidality. you are STRONG. believe that! ” 😀
Come on… why don’t you tell us your story ? 😀
you won’t find peace in death. as soon as you’re dead, there’s no turning back. i see you’re in mental pain and there are better ways to treat that. call a suicide-hotline in your area or talk to your loved ones. your mother is already in pain so why cause her more? people say suicide is a selfish deed because you only hurt the people around you. You need to see the beauty in life before letting all this suicide crap in your mind. Don’t you want to travel the world or marry the one you truly love before dying? I don’t know if this will help you consider living but just remember as soon as you die, you won’t get to undo it.