I don’t know what’s wring with me. I need attention. I need to be noticed. Everything hurts and I never feel loved. I literally never talk or text or call anyone and I basically spend every day only talking and hanging with my parents. This by itself is not a big deal, but I feel like I’m weird because of it. The few friends I do have call me a liar, an annoying little *****, a slut, a whore and basically they want nothing to do with me. It’s my fault somehow and I’m not just saying that to sound pitiful. I’m totally lost and pretty much numb. I don’t really care Â anymore and that scares the shit out of me. I’m fucking huge and I’ve struggled with eating issues for years. I’m still a normal/fat weight because I don’t purge when binge. I fast for days but it’s really not a big deal. Don’t even know what m looking for in posting this okay bye.