i know this will sound stupid but i honestly dont know what to do anymore. i am a 14 year old girl who suffers from diabetes, coeliacs disease, under active thyroid, and psoriasis. i hate my life! i think i suffer from depression but i dont know? ive never told anyone about how i feel, and at the moment its like everyday is a task and getting through it is very difficult!
i already feel bad posting this because some people are going through so much worse than me but being 14 with psoriasis is a living hell. when my friends look so nice in all of their clothes i honestly, if i had a gun, could shoot myself there and then because i have to cover my body up so no one can see the disgusting body thats underneath!
with diabetes i have to inject four times a day and when it comes to appointments and its always a bad result i feel like im letting everyone down-wait a second- i am! i think everyone would find the world a better place if i werent in it! all i seem to do is disappoint and make other people feel bad for my mistakes!
its taken me a month to post this because ive never confessed anything to anyone! ive cut myself a number of times and im starting to feel that its not enough! i need to die. im not worth it. im ugly, why is life worth living if im going to be alone for it?
sorry for everything, i wont post again if im being selfish.
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That is a lot to deal with at such a young age. And your strong enough to post how you feel here, for all of us to see. Well we are here any time you need to talk or vent. Stay strong and don’t give up. Hopefully something will start to make things better physically for you. <3
thank you! ive been reading some other posts and you always seem to know the right thing to say! i appreciate it! im here if you want a chat as well! <3
You’re welcome…and thanks <3
Diabetes and an under-active thyroid are auto immune diseases which can also affect your mood. Once you bring the thyroid problem under control you might start to see some improvement.
You might not be happy with your appearance but there is no use comparing yourself to everyone else. Nobody is perfect and they probably have issues that you don’t know about. I’m sure you look normal but if you are unhappy about something change it for yourself and not others. For exampleI have a broken nose but I can improve my appearance with surgery but I wouldn’t because it’s not that important to me. A lot of people would look completely different without artificial enhancements.
You are not going to be alone forever. I was watching a documentary called ‘the undateables’ and they had all sorts of illnesses and impairments and they were able to find somebody compatible so there’s hope for everyone really.
You sound like you’re dealing with a lot. Being a teenager can be emmotional at the best of times without all the stuff you’re also getting on top. I don’t wish to sound like a nag but isn’t cutting a bad idea with diabetes in case of infection and lack of healing. I don’t know much about it but I know a friends dad has a wound that just won’t heal. I understand why you cut its just well you know be careful more than most. I think you’re more than welcome to keep posting. I’ve been here 18 months but just don’t post a lot.
Duke, I was going to say that they’re are a lot of pretty people with “ugly” on the inside and many people who feel they are ugly (most of the time that’s not true) that are so beautiful on the inside. Your right when you say there’s no use in comparing. Everyone has their issues. Old school: don’t judge a book by its cover.
As long as you are a good person, that’s all that counts.
You have a lot on your plate with your physical illnesses, I’m not surprised that you feel overwhelmed at times. I hope you feel able to keep posting here ‘Idon’tknow’ if it helps at all.