I think….

I might be clinically depressed or bipolar. I’ve been “sad” for 4 years now (if that means anything). I’ve taken classes in highschool and in my 2 and a half years of college and feel I might be, but that doesn’t change the way I feel. I do not want to be here. I want to leave and never come back. I want to go far away where no one knows me. When my own family found out I tried to kill myself, they made it worse. They cried and it only made me feel worse about myself. I tried letting someone in and talk to them about how I feel, but they made it worse, too. After all of that cooled down, I got a little better. I didn’t think about dying, but I still didn’t want to live. But lately, I wish I had never been born. I can’t talk to my “friends” because when they found out the first time, the accused me, and my parents tried to fix me… I don’t really know where to go, or if this will help, but I have a sliver of hope that someone feels or felt the same and got through it…