love?

so a few days ago. i here from my ex who ignored me for over a month. this is kinda secret since were a long distance thing, my parents say its not healthy to talk to him, well fuck u. so they took my itouch and cell away for either a looooong while or forever. so there goes private contact, so then we start e-mailing and after a week he ignores me for over a month, then wednesday im sure it was he e-mailed me. i was soo happy. then it wet to silence again. well earlier i was home for 7 hrs watching my sis while our rents were out. after 4 hours i took this to my advantage and called my bf using the house phone normally he never answers this time HE DID! so we start talkin then i brought him and i up? i asked “soo we r still tgether right?” his response “idk, we can hardly talk” i explained how itsmy parents fault and we just have to mae an effort. so then he said “i dont know” i say “please i love u” so he says “ok fine, i love u to babe.” i know this is like im forcing everything but i was just playing around then he started singing one of my favorite songs and i sang with him “glad u came” by the wanted. we were laughing and i was just so happy like i said in an earlier post today is a good day. then we kept talking but then i missed one thing the free “i love u’s” u only said it once first when texting its at the end of every other message. but whatever im just very glad ur back. then one thing i asked u “why havent u been talking much” ur reply “oh just havent felt like it” i felt like a last priorty as ur gf but things r harder and they will get better though. so what am i saying in this post?
idk if u mean anything u said to me or if u even care i just know i love u and i wont see u go. i know ur here to stay if i can help it. love is the only reason i live, so i cant lose u. i love u. but now what is love? it seems like the love is partially gone.