So many things have changed in the past year I don’t know what the hell happened. Yes, I have made some friends now that I probably would have had before now. But.. My old friends.. I kinda miss them. I miss being able to talk to them about anything. They were honestly amazing people. Well, until they all turned into back stabbers. But,before they were that though, I could call them in the middle of the night if I needed anything. I don’t have that now. I have “friends.†I even call a few my “best friends,†I don’t have the strength nor the trust now to mean it though. A bit over a year ago, I was pretty sure I fell in love with someone, I thought he felt the same way, too. I fucked that up because I believed someone who I thought was my best friend tear us apart. He tried so hard to keep us together, but I made up lies so he would leave. Now, he hates me..More than anything in this world. I got what I thought I wanted. I lost my best friend, too at the same time. The second I told her I was done with him, she left, too. Come to find out it was her that fucked me over NOT him.& Why do I miss her as a friend? After all of this, all that she put me through. I became so depressed. I started using drugs. Became friends with people I shouldn’t. Now, I’m sitting here thinking I seriously I gave up on life. The only thing that is keeping me living is the things that I keep hidden that I don’t want people to find. But, right now.. I only have a lighter hidden. Nothing else. This lighter is the only thing that is keeping me from doing something bad. & I could get rid of this in a split second. One year ago.. I was the happiest girl. Now look at me, I’m a complete wreck. What I would do for another chance. I need to be happy again. I need someone here for me.
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I’m here for you 🙂 I’m here for everyone. Things are bound to change with time, you should embrace the change and try and take a step for the better. Everyday is another chance, you just need to take advantage of that. Happiness IS achievable, you just need find out what makes you happy and explore new opportunities. The world is huge and vast, don’t let a few problems get you down.
Awe, thank you. 🙂