Im just so depressed I can’t get out of bed today nor can I sleep. I want to get up its just I feel like I have no use for it
Tomorrow I’m going to my friends..the first time since I got on my meds. She knows about them and so does get mom but I’m still nervous about taking it just because I try to keep it hidden.
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Hey savemefrommyself,
I truly believe that it’s best to show others who you really are (in…some cases. For example, I wouldn’t advertise that i’m suicidal to the world) but given the fact that you’re hiding them- could it be you/other people don’t understand the importance of your meds? Or accept the fact that you’re on them? Otherwise, why would you hide them? I get embarrassed, humiliated, etc. even when people know i’m on them. Someone told me it’s because I truly don’t accept it yet (if that makes any sense).
I’m definately not trying to put you on the spot, i’m just trying to help you think outside the box. 🙂
I hate the fact that I have to depend on meds to be happy. I am ashamed of it, My mom dosent want me on them at all, and well my Dad who was my main supporter of me being on them has walked out of my life. So theres really no one I can really talk to about being on them except anyone on here. My friend..she listens but I dont think she quite understands.
Maybe I`ll accept it soon…but I totally relate to you on that.
And thanks (: that really made me think
I am so glad it helped you in some way or another. Of course, I don’t know entirely of your situation, but maybe you don’t have to depend on meds to be happy. I think (this will sound like complete [insert words here] but…) you have to really depend on yourself. And by that, I mean the actions you take for yourself, how you accept yourself, choosing what’s best for you etc. It sounds impossible and immature and whatnot, but believe me it works for some people- of course, easier said than done, but why not give it a try? If it doesn’t work out, i’m always here to read every word you type and will try to think of some alternatives. 🙂