I havn’t posted on here for a couple of months now. Things weren’t improving, but they weren’t getting worse either. But now, I feel so sick, sick with pain. I can feel every vein in my body, pumping tar into my heart. everyday I feel a bit worse. I havn’t been going to school. I don’t even see the point of school anymore. it’s a fucking waste of time. maybe I wont even have to kill myself, but my surrounding family will, through stress. I don’t know how I would kill myself, helium method?
I just, I thought I had help, but now it just feels like it was just prolonging the enevitable, I will die.