Abandoned.

No one has noticed.
No one has noticed I spend all my time and money now getting drunk these days.
That’s all I want to do.
I just want everything to go away, And to be able to enjoy things and have fun and laugh.
Alcohol helps. But at the end of the day I still end up in my bedroom, Taking pills or drinking or just curled up in bed crying and listening to Radiohead and REM.
I’m such a waste of life.
Seriously, I am actually not good for anything.
I’v abandoned myself really. I just can’t do anything alone or without some sort of crutch to help me.
This Summer has really been amazing and I’v had such a great time, But there’s something still missing. Something that always was missing and I don’t know what it is but it’s never there and I just can’t look for it anymore.
It’s too hard.