When i wake up i already crave a bucket or a cocktail.
4 Nights ago i fucked a guy. i dont think i ever regret anything as much as this.
3 Nights ago i passed out in front of our bungalow. i woke up on the ground . my head still hurts.
2 nights ago i was at the halfmoon party. before i was even drunk i fell. my whole foot was open and i could barely walk. i drank a lot to not feel the pain. After 3 buckets i felt nothing and danced for a couple of hours. we w
ere home around 5. our boat left at 8. we were T the boat and bus for 12 hours to bangkok. i never got time to clean the wound. when w arrived i looked qt my foot and it was literally 10 times as big as usual. also i could not walk anymore.
last night we went to the hospital. i was there for avout 3 hours. I got antibiotics via idk whats it called in english. when you get a needle in your hand and stuff. you know? its in f thw worst feelings ever imo.
i need to go back tonight. i need to take antibiotics for a week o so. meaning: i cant drink anymore.
the pain is fucking killing me and i cant smoke weed or drink alcohol to make me feel better.
I hate myself.
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I really cant type proper on my phone. goddamn touchscreen.
At least is an interesting adventure that you can talk about.
.. maybe if i could drink now to make me feel better.
i was seriously doubting to take the antibiotics. But eventually i did because well, i also dont really want to get an infected foot in thailand.
i wish they sold buckets in holland too.
also duke i did do something awesome, we had an elephant trekking tour (which i feel kind of bad about. poor elephants) and at the end i could ride on his neck likw the jungle boys do. it was so awesome. That is about the only thing i liked though.
I really love elephants.
I’m not trying to get preachy on you or anything. Believe me, I enjoy drinking too. But have you ever tried to chase a non supplemented high? Like maybe adrenaline rushes or something along those lines. Maybe it’s the alcohol making you feel bad.
No. i usually smoke weed. i just drink because i need a weedreplacement.
I don’t believe weed is a depressant like alcohol is. But you still might benefit from chasing the non-supplemented highs.
Yes, weed is a depressant like alcohol.
As you use it long term it builds up in your system and can cause depression.
Sounds like a break from drinking s a good idea!
This sounds like an adventure. Try some new hobbies maybe? Painting could be a good hobby. You don’t even have to be ‘that good’, just do it. Painting is painting. You can paint whatever.