I’m not sure how this works but I feel like venting. I’m 25 years old. People say I’m pretty but most of the time I can’t stand who I see in the mirror. I’ve been reading posts on this website over the last few days and I was surprised to see my thoughts and feelings expressed so accurately by random people all over. You know when people say oh everyone’s felt like  that, like that’s suppose to help but this actually is kind of comforting. Anyway back to venting. I had a car accident this mornin and physically I’m fine but in every other way I’m screwed. For all the reasons I’ve wanted to die this seems so trivial but it feels like the last straw. As I sit here in the carpark at the beach, trying to skull back this bottle of whiskey, everything seems so ridiculously trivial but so effin frustrating. I kinda wanna talk to someone but I feel so shit I don’t want to see anyone. So if anyone’s on here feel free to say hi, I could do with a response. Cheers.
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Im 26 and i just found this site a few days ago, it help but it doent take my pain away
I want to be able to communicate with others who are struggling in these similar ways. I don’t necessarily want to put my phone number public, but am not sure how to private message, I really hope you feel better. You are not alone in your feelings of pain. I feel like I want to scream but don’t even have the energy for that. Last time I screamed it out, I hurt my throat for a while…..so tired of this thing called life.
Quietheart, I like your name. Quiet people are cool.
Car accident sucks ass. Obviously.
I’m SOOO glad that you have found identification here Quietheart. I found the same when I first arrived about six weeks ago. I hate that ‘Everybody feels like that sometimes’. My Mum pulls that one on me regularly. And I’m like, manic depressive, on long term disability and often suicidally depressed! No Mum, everyone doesn’t. Hate to burst your bubble…But just as you say Quietheart, that’s REALLY how it is here. Random people. All feeling basically the same way as me…
I’ve never found a site like this before and I’ve been on Moodgarden (for bipolar peeps) and various depression forums. Nowhere did I get this sort of ‘coming home’ feeling.
I hope a) you feel better soon (hold the whiskey maybe, alcohol’s a depressant – and b)continue to post here.
I’m confident that you will consider to benefit fir as long as you remain here.
Peace to you Quietheart.
Zoe x
Understanding, I know what you mean about being tired. I’m tired of everything. I feel exhausted. Right now I don’t feel like dying I just feel like sleeping for a long time. Quiet my thoughts. Thanks for commenting, it’s quite nice being able to share my thoughts on here and getting a real response 🙂
Hi Zoe, thank you, its inspired by my favorite hymn. It goes “who am I to judge another when I walk imperfectly. In the quiet heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can’t see.”
Yea I’m pretty sure most people DON’T have the same crazy extreme intense thoughts and feelings I’ve had. Oh I’m sure they’ve felt sad or angry and frustrated of course but it’s not the same.
And thank you I do feel a bit better now. Yea whiskey is not the best thing for me but i just wanted to numb myself a bit and that was the easiest most convenient way.
I like this site, although there seems to be a few young people which makes me sad. A family friend took his life two weeks ago. He was only 16. I use to babysit him. Very tragic, my heart aches for his family.