Worst fear? Faced. Vacation… Not a success

So i faced my worse fear.. But the so called “vacation” i suppose to have fun on didn’t go as i planned… When i got to Ontario the first 2 days was relaxing and sorta fun. I hadn’t relaxed in a long time it was nice but after that my depression took a spiraling turn for the worst… I got extremely depressed i couldn’t even find the strength to play with my 2 year old baby brother Jayson whom was plastered to my side the whole time i was there… When we got home a week later i started to loosen up and relax.. But the next day we packed up the tent trailer and were of to BC i was alright in BC then the exact same thing happened… I got super depressed… My “big brother” Shoeless as i call him tried to get me ta loosen up but i just couldn’t i was so depressed and lonely… I didn’t know anyone other then my family there.. And on top of that it was +40 the whole time… U were basically in a bathing suit from dawn till dusk… Then on our way home we stopped at the Canyon Hot springs, Banff and Red Deer it felt like it was -20 cause i just got out of +40 weather.. When i got home for the second time i was immediately shipped to my dads.. Now my dad wants to take us to Saskatchewan… I think ill b a lot happier their but.. If I’m not anyone have any helpful tips?..