1:43 on september 22

@M’n’M >>> one of the little things that annie and i used to do, anytime i noticed it was 1:43, we would say to the other, “one-four-three”. then the other would reply, “one-four-three-two”…

143 was a numerical representation of the words “i love you”… 1432 was ” i love you too”. we would sometimes do this at 11:43 as well.

i never said those words, just to say them… or because i felt i should. i said those words because i really felt them.

also, the 22nd of every month i have always done something for her. we began seeing each other on april 22nd 2001. (earth day actually) so, i would do something, even if it was just a single flower, a short poem, or something way more elaborate on every 22nd of every month since then. she used to say that sometimes that’s how she knew i was special. because unlike every other guy in the world, she knew i would never forget our anniversary. she used to appreciate all of the simple “little things” that i tried to do, every single day, just to show her i care. why does she choose to not remember these things anymore? how does what made me special in her eyes then, make her hate me now?

i have never stopped loving her. and even when i am dead and gone, i will still find a way to love her… because she is so beautiful, even when she is not.

sorry. i know you didn’t ask, but, yeah.

sorry. i didn’t mean to make you cry. i was just trying to explain why i was crying.