I don’t know how much longer I can deal with the way I am living. Â Death seems so much easier than the struggling I do every day. Â I don’t want to do this anymore. Â I don’t want to struggle and worry all the time. Â I want to be happy and comfortable with who I am, only I don’t see that ever happening.
It seems so tempting. Â I could just relieve all of this pain in a second.
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I 100% understand what you are saying. In what “way” are you living that you cannot deal with?? Even if you are not a religious person, I know FOR A FACT that God gives his toughest battles or “sruggles” as you called it, to his strongest soldiers. You will never be able to see in the midst of the hurting your going through right now, the future happiness. That’s the point of faith. Not faith in God, but faith in 1 day being comfortable with yourself and happy. If happiness came “easy” then everyone would have it and we wouldn’t need this website… Just keep fighting, you were not put here for no reason… I have been through this, and my dad was on the website last year and is now “missing” (i know he couldn’t handle it either) and it’s not worth it please. I’m here.
You could’ve, but you didn’t – and I’m glad. The reason life is worth living is because struggle defines it: survival. You are comfortable enough to get creative with your nickname here “n0 0ne”. Those zeroes may as well be your eyes. You see us all here, you can see that you are not alone… none of us are, even those in the darkest coldest corners of this planet without internet access aren’t alone.
We’re in this together. Please read some of the other posts here, it may just help you discover the happiness and comfort you don’t see yet.
suicide is always the answer. all your pain will go away
Um ok, to CharlieMarbles24 I’m truly sorry for whatever pain has caused you to think suicide is the answer, but you shouldn’t bring someone else down with you. Our friend on this website is brave enough to share their feelings and ask for help. I want to be there for them, and when you’re ready I will be there for you too. I’ll be here.