there is this constant hollowness in my chest. when i breathe, it fills up with pain. i miss her so much.
i have lost control of every aspect of what i am supposed to be. i want nothing except to hold her again.
i don’t belong here, but she doesn’t want me there either.
i don’t know what to do. i don’t know how to be. nothing matters to me anymore except my thoughts of her…
i unwittingly hurt her. and i have punished myself everyday for that. she knowingly hurts me. and i love her regardless. i know i can’t do this without her anymore.
my only regret is having ever hurt her to begin with.
why can’t i stop crying?
because it hurts so much to not have her in my life.
i am more than sorry.