Lights off. Ears plugged. Doors locked. Notes placed. Water running. Blade cutting. Perfect. All according to plan.
Lights fading. Consciousness slipping. Room spinning. Parents sleeping. Blood pouring. Finally. Time to go.
No more. The End. Black. Infinite black. Peace. Calm. Eternity.
Then noise. Faint. Distant. A hum. A buzz. Audible only because it it the only sound in the beautiful void.
The hum won’t stop. Won’t go away. Won’t leave me alone. I have to find out what it is. What is it anyway!? Look around. Just black.
Wait, I didn’t look around. I couldn’t. There is only black. Maybe if I open my eyes. Then I could find the source of that damn humming.
Blinding light. How is it so bright all of a sudden!? What happened to the calm pitch black? Now the hum is even louder!?
And there’s something else… Murmur. Words. Voices. Talking. People.
I realize what’s happened.
Fuck.
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I hope everyone reads this, because that’s what it’s like.
Attempted sunday night. Woke up monday sometime. First access to computer-today. Had to post something. My post history can show you what happened for me.
Yeah… Fuck is about right. Well for what it’s worth I’m sorry you had to go through that. Thank for comming back and posting. I expect your under supervision for a while… ?
Suicide watch for a few months i think. Its not that bad really, just annoying. I dont mind talking about these things with people, but the looks i get. Thats the unbearable part.
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The blade touches my skin,
Our friendship suddenly kicks in.