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Angry?

by Drake 8/18/2013

written by Drake

Has anyone ever kept years worth of emotion bottled up to the point where you’re afraid to release it anymore? to the point that you feel every ounce of rage you can muster suddenly flare whenever the slightest thing irritates you?

This is my third post. It’s been a couple weeks since my last and I’ve gotten a bit better; my first two posts would’ve persuaded any psychiatrist I was ready and willing to commit suicide. I’ve gotten better. Things have started looking up a bit. But that pain still lingers. And with it, an anger I can’t even begin to describe. All my life I’ve […]

8/18/2013 2 comments

Scientific Mind.

by lifekilledthelifeinme 8/6/2013

written by lifekilledthelifeinme

I hate having a scientific mind, it’s like I can’t have a normal life because I’m thinking of things along the lines of “I feel like we are made of nothing, the whole concept of how we live life and how we sleep is unexplainably weird. We have eyes, mouths and ears.. We are walking limps.” It all sounds funny but it gives me this really nasty hopeless feeling. Trapped in my mind kinda thing. I wish I could think what normal people think but I’ve bypassed that mentality long ago. I’m living for my family and boyfriend in whom I love dearly. […]

8/6/2013 2 comments

Life.

by bigbaconmama 7/18/2013

written by bigbaconmama

Recently I have done a project on suicide. Some of the things that I have discovered are truly sad, and disturbing. It makes me really sad to think that someone would end there life over bullying, a lost loved one, and just because they are plain depressed. Your life is so much more worth to live and you donâ€™t even understand. To the people around you, your life makes them feel like living. Your life is something precious to hold on to. Being bullied because your gay, bi, they say your â€œuglyâ€, or too â€œfatâ€ please donâ€™t believe them. Even though itâ€™s extremely hard at […]

7/18/2013 7 comments

Praying for the end

by gloomygirl1313 7/16/2013

written by gloomygirl1313

I am praying that I don’t wake up in the morning. I usually do this each night before I go to bed now. I don’t yet have the courage to end things myself but I keep thinking each day I will get braver. I know why I want to end my life would seem rediculas to many. silly.. but the pain my heart and mind are in is unbearable to me. I do not want to hear it will get better. that I will heal that there is other options or that someone out there cares. or will love me. I can not even begin […]

7/16/2013 5 comments

My Side Of The Story

by XxWhyxX 7/8/2013

written by XxWhyxX

Well, I guess, My story starts about 1 year ago… I had been struggling with Insomnia and would do anything to get a full nights rest. I was mean, angry and on the verge of tears constantly. My friend had the same issue, but not as bad, her mom had bought some all natural sleeping aids. They worked great for myÂ friend and I was envious! I had asked my mom as soon as I heard about the success, if she could maybe be open to me trying them out.. I was shut down so fast… I was angry and hurt that she had said […]

7/8/2013 2 comments

Womb ears

by wombers 7/2/2013

written by wombers

It’s time

7/2/2013 2 comments

After six years as a shut-in, it’s finally the end.

by Chaosut27 6/13/2013

written by Chaosut27

I’m not sure why I feel compelled to share my story, but for whatever reason I’m not sure I can stop myself from typing these words. But I will try to keep to details to a minimum and will just cover the most important aspects to keep this short. In high school I was an introverted nerd, but the first year actually turned out to the best, and it was only downhill from there. I had large ears and a stutter, the latter of which would often limit the conversations and connections and I could have with other people. In grade eight I started to […]

6/13/2013 8 comments

Was it a Sign

by Function41 6/9/2013

written by Function41

I am in the military and my wife has been telling me for years “Ever since that last deployment, you just haven’t been the same”. Can’t say I was blown up by an IED or anything of that nature, but the experience was bad enough that the the thought of going back out gave me enough anxiety to want to rip out my chest. I should have gotten help when I got back. It took 3 years but it won. I broke.

On January 24th 2013. I tried to commit suicide. I tied an electrical cord around a joist in my basement. Then I tied it […]

6/9/2013 3 comments

a private message made public

by afakenickdrake 5/19/2013

written by afakenickdrake

i am in pretty bad shape too man….i can feel you and see how many you and me there really are, imagine the total grief and helplessness and hopelessness in this world man, it is enough to be a world in itself, maybe that is what hell is. maybe hell is the collective weight of all peoples’ failed aspirations, expectations and dreams, maybe hell is the all weighty almighty DREAM that was never chased. it just lies there, emptying slowly, its mass and thickness invading all that comes in its way, it comes inside you and me thijs, through the nose, close your eyes all […]

5/19/2013 0 comment

Sinking Into Darkness

by emtk 5/9/2013

written by emtk

There lays a girl

in a large room, painted in white

yet the walls are darkened from the lack of light

one small window can only let in so much daylight.

Situated in the middle, eyes glued to the ceiling

wondering when the outside world will come to a halt

when the noise was disappear from her ears

yet it all still surrounds her.

Tears stream slowly, yet are notÂ visible

screams would be heard

if only her voice wasn’t lost

for she is too afraid to be open to this world.

Day is coming to an end

yet it feels like no time has gone by

everything has always been that way

dull and the same.

How to escape

to feel alive

to […]

5/9/2013 4 comments

I am TIRED!!!

by xylem 3/14/2013

written by xylem

I am tired of studying, I’m tired of working, paying my bills, doing the dishes, crossing the street. I am tired of my morning coffee. I am tired of making small talk while watching your fake face smiling at me. I’m tired of all the mundane little inconveniences of being alive… I am tired of doing the laundry, reading books, brushing my hair, I am tired of caring, smiling, pretending and all the other symptoms of life…. my ears are going deaf listing to your lies and my lies, my eyes are going blind from you betrayals and my betrayals. Stop,,, I want it all […]

3/14/2013 4 comments

I wonder

by xylem 3/4/2013

written by xylem

I wonder how death feels like. I wonder how death tastes like. Would it be as sweet as they say?
I wonder how it feels when my ears can no longer hear the sound of my heart beat, my eyes no longer searching for light. I wonder how it feels to not have all the bitter memories playing in my head on constant replay and replay and â€¦ It will all STOP!!! Me and everything that makes me who I am will just stop. The morning after Iâ€™ve stopped to exist would be just like any other morning that came before that.

3/4/2013 11 comments

the walking dead…

by gr82bme123 1/22/2013

written by gr82bme123

I’m here but, not all the way. I feel as if I am dying alive. Thye world is picking at my wounds. My cuts are being doused with ALCOHOL! I no longer feel as if, I am a human. I am hurting inside more than words will allow me to explain. I mutiliated my body again, I slash for each person who has hurt me. I Cant deal with this horrible pain. Shattered glass stabs me from within, I bleed an invisible blood. I drip sorrow from my eyes. Where has all of this anger come from, why are my dreams terrorizing my reality? Why […]

1/22/2013 5 comments

“Partying”

by hadldhjf 12/21/2012

written by hadldhjf

I do not understand, at all, what people enjoy about going out “partying”. It stinks of shit, cigarette smoke, stale alcohol, urine, sweat and garbage, it’s fucking loud, as in so FUCKING loud that you’ll go deaf and you have to scream in each other’s ears to be heard, it’s expensive, a rip off, a con, and you’re supposed to get drunk, and if you don’t drink you’re a fucking loser. And obviously – OBVIOUSLY – I can’t fucking dance so that’s hopeless as well.

And then to ‘cap the night off’ there’s some sort of obligatory purchase of a street food item, usually a fried […]

12/21/2012 12 comments

A man can only take so much…

by Son of Kings 11/26/2012

written by Son of Kings

I’ve tried before to take my own life, I was 22. Many things hadÂ occurred through out my life at that point all of which had been coming to a boil, my button had been pushed, death was the only way to escape. Â Some may find it cowardice, but not me, it’s my life, the things in my life are under my control, and at the time I felt I had lost control of everything. So I decided I was going to take control of something for once, it was one of the lowest days of my life. I was having issues finding work, the mother […]

11/26/2012 5 comments

Hey, everyone

by purplelife 11/23/2012

written by purplelife

Hi, I’m new to this site. I guess, I’ve kind of been looking for something like this for a while. Some where that someone who isn’t related to me, and doesn’t have a biased opinion can give me advice. I’m not suicidal at the moment. Never really have been seriously. I just want ears. So this is my story: In February, the guy I had been dating for the past eight months broke up with me because he is gay (and I am female). He claimed he dated me as a way of trying to confirm to himself of his sexuality. Don’t get me wrong, […]

11/23/2012 6 comments

The Everlasting Circle of…

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 11/15/2012

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

Often times I wonder how I reached this point. This point of no return. Of an endless repitition of internal suffering. I can’t really think of an answer. Perhaps that means that I was just destined to be this way.

Many different people think the solution is simply, talkingÂ about your feelings orÂ seeing aÂ shrinkÂ or just looking at lifeÂ at a different angle. But they’re all wrong. Because no matter whatÂ people say on the outside, you’ll always be that suicidalÂ kid (no matter how old you are, actually)Â andÂ despite all of the nice things they’ll say, no matter how much they tell you that they like you or that you […]

11/15/2012 5 comments

“Rock Bottom”

by shygirl18 11/6/2012

written by shygirl18

There isn’t any place as welcoming and unforgiving as it. Actually, that’s wrong. Hitting rock bottom means everything you have done may not be tolerable, but maybe it might be forgivable in the next life. And so here we sit. Alone. Cold. Empty. Loving and hating every second of it. Loving, because the hatred gives you power. Something to feel. I’d rather feel bitter than this damned sadness all the time. Ignorant to other emotions. Numb. The soft buzzing in your ears allows you to focus on your own problems. That’s all everyone is doing, anyways. Dealing with their own problems. What’s it to you […]

11/6/2012 3 comments

Sometimes silence, can’t be undone;

by jjgirl13 10/31/2012

written by jjgirl13

sometimes silence can’t be undone.

I sit quietly and close my eyes.
I hear the world about me whir and buzz from a distance.
TV announcers raising their voices
debating this and that, arguments and choices

I wonder about the relevance
Of the questions of mice and men
inquiries abound, relentless in their prevalence

I grasp at them desperately, floating mid-air.
Always above my head
They fly by, with me unnoticed.

They tell me, that the answers to all my confusion
are just a step ahead, just a wisp away
But always my battles, end with Pyrrhic victories
Losses more than gains, condemned to mere memories

And…just
Just;

Just when I […]

10/31/2012 0 comment

I Hate it When People Laugh, I am so Bitter.

by Black Swan 9/29/2012

written by Black Swan

I’ve landed back at my mom’s after yet another bipolar misfortune and It’s just torture to see how happy they are here. I am the weird vampire with Â permanently shut curtains in an enclosed chamber that forcibly goes out only when strictly necessary. Still the door is not thick enough to prevent my family’s loud and constant laugher from reaching my ears. I get to hear their phone conversations and how they constantly make plans to meet others, go out to restaurants, country houses, trips and even to have sex. I want to strangle them. They once asked me, would you rather all of us […]

9/29/2012 18 comments

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