Y me?! Y is it always fuckin me?!  Once again I’m sick as a dog… I can just barely get my ass out of bed to go to the bathroom or eat… My tonsils r swollen to almost blocking my airways, I’m gaging on them, coughing, and have a fever at 106…. We cant brake my fever and my dad hates hospitals almost as much as i do.. This happens every month 2-3 times… Ill get so sick i wont even get out of bed… My mamas bf will have to carry me upstairs to the couch so they can watch me, i hate it sometimes ill close my eyes and fall asleep and ill have dreams where my dead uncle is carrying me down a dark path, he’ll carry me till the path splits and my buddies Mike and Dayton will b there and Davie (thats wat we called my dead uncle) will hand me off to Mike and Mike and Dayton will take me away and Davie will disappear… And when I’m this sick my dreams r fucked up… But sometimes i wonder if when i go to open my eyes in the morning i wont ill b dead. But my dad is very convinced that Davie is keeping me alive for a reason.. I wish i would just die sometimes i get hit with this  a lot  high fever extremely swollen tonsils red puffy eyes and a slight cough. It drives me insane… Im ready to leave but Davie doesn’t seem to think so…
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Maybe you just need to get your tonsils out? I was getting sick 2-3 times a month and it was so painful. Getting them out was no fun but I feel SO much better and whenever I do occasionally get sick, my tonsils aren’t there to swell up so it’s not half as bad. Hope this helps!
We have been fighting to get them out but theo wont do it, this morning i was almost hospitalized… My fever shot up to 110 for my size ans age thats pretty bad, im 14 next week and im only 145 lbs, my dad burried me in ice packs it was soooo cold… It seems like i just keep getting worse… Like im not going to get any better..