Have been trying to cheat life for years now….

Not going to say much….
Have been trying to cheat life for years now….
It is much harder to die than people might believe….
Given up on finding the reason for feeling the way I do….. Bipolar….
How do you fix something if you do not know what is broken????

Let me get back to the actual point I wanted to make….

Yes the old topic of “It is selfish” what about the people you leave behind…. Etc…..
I have come to this realisation sadly only after years of putting my loved ones through hell…
(Numerous attempts of suicide… Drugs… Accidents… too many to mention….)

I would rather hurt them now once… Than keeping on putting them through it over and over and over again….. At least they will be able to grieve…. Know where I am…. No more wondering…

Sorry it was written all messed up…..
Guess where I am….

Suicide….. Been trying for years now…. Can’t even get that one right…..

Do yourself the favour… Open the following link….

http://www.well.com/~art/suicidepge1.html