The term, “I cant live without you” is really sticking with me. I’m and 18 year old female. I’m in love with another female. We’ve been dating over a year now. I’m never been in love like this. I even dated someone over 2 years .. still never felt this way. She is truely the love of my life. I dont even think of us as being in a ‘relationship’ .. I think .. thought of us as ONE. My soul is tied to hers. I feel so empty now .. now that she’s gone. I need to be close to her. I need to kiss her. I need to interact with her. I just want us to be happy. We’ve been through alot over this passed year. Verbal abuse & physical abuse .. but we stayed strong together. I admit it was my fault.. I was young and dumb. I always thought that she’d be there. I think of us as one. I think of us as always being together no matter what, because our love was THAT strong .. I messed up. I had an attitude problem, I was cocky, I was mean.. Most of the time we argued. but all the other times, our relationship was PERFECT. idk, I’m blind , im stupid. I cant function without her. I cant live without her. I promised over and over that I would change .. & she believed me .. but I blew it. I never thought this day would come .. that she would leave me .. for good. It’s been about a week & i swear I’ve changed. I would do anything for that girl !! anything for us to be together. I never ever want to lose her… she means sooo much to me, & i know its hard to believe because of our past, but ive made MISTAKES . I never cheated. But I was always mad at something. There’s no excuse.. but stress plays a big part in this situation. I was a senior in high school, and I was going through alot.. but SHE was the one who was always there for me & i took it all out on her. I wish I can go back .. My ex before her messed up my mind. fucked me up real bad. and I took it out on her. Even though she was sooo perfect, I took my past out on her. I couldn’t trust her, I couldn’t do anything right … but she is the love of my life. and I am sooo very sorry from the bottom of my heart. I cant live without her. She wont believe that I’ve changed. She doesnt want to work on us because of all the stuff I put her though. But I promise, I have changed this time. Time really does alot. & this short amount of time away from her really CHANGED me. It helped me to really realize my mistakes and my bad decisions. I used to get mad at the stupidest things. Without any communication .. I always assumed things.. communication is the key. If i could just go back in time and change everything I would .. I’m sorry from the bottom of my heart… But now she wont take me back. I CANT LIFE WITHOUT HER. I cannot survive without her. I need her back. I need her to see that I’ve changed for myself, for her & for US. I cant live without her. & if I cant have her .. I will not live…
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>30 y/o guy here<
my story is obviously very different… but the phrase, " i can't live without her" means the same thing to me. i can't. i won't. and even if i wanted to, i would be an empty shell of a being without her.
i am sorry for your pain. i can't say i know it exactly, but i know my own… and it hurts beyond hurt.
You should email her this link it moved me, it should move her if she does love you ( alot)…
definitely hurts beyond hurt .. a pain that I’ve never felt before .. so empty and alone.
This makes me so sad, because I know how you feel. I wish the ones we love could see us for who we are, and not who we were.
and I have sent her this link .. hopefully she does review it and sees that I truly am sorry .
exactly stabby , I really have changed and I dont want to go back to our bad days, I really want her to see that
I am too a female in love with another female, first things first no person or thing is even worth suicidal thoughts, I dated my girlfriend for three years but since my deep dark past I was always so angry at the world that I took it out on her never would I cheat on her but it was hard to be myself the way I was raised, but I say don’t give up just yet it took me three months and I got her back, but I also gave myself time to realize the things I’m doing wrong, no woman deserves it. Change yourself completely figure out those small flaws, get some counseling show that girl you love her and you’ll do anything to show her you do.
-someone who cares