Omfg i screwed… Stupid me just made a promise i know i wont b able to keep… I promise my friend whom i call my sister Ember that i wouldn’t cut till my birthday not even on my birthday and i mean its not that far but to me it feels like a eternity my bday is on the 16th this month.. And every year since i was 6 years old i would cut my hip (where the bone is) and i would cut deep enough i would almost need stitches but not deep enough that it would leave a scar.. But i would dip my finger in the blood and put it on a piece of paper in a book i have and would write the date time place of cut and age… And put my finger print there… But this year.. I promised her i wouldn’t do it (well cut i didn’t tell her wat i do…) Â Â Idk wat to do… Someone help?! Â Â Should i continue with wat i do? Stop? Do it and not tell? Idk wat to do!!
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Of course you should try to stop cutting. You could get get a serious infection,need stitches,cut an artery etc. And besides that, it’s probably not something your friends and family want you to do.
You are talking about cutting over depression right?
Yea ive been depressed since i was 6 1/2 years old… And ive tried plenty of times to stop but as soon as my birthday rolls around i relapse… And start again…
And my family doesnt know only Ember and a select few friends know…
Only on your birthday, why’s that?
Its really embarrassing when people find out you’ve been doing that, like I always feel ashamed, guilty and stupid ,but the longer you don’t do it the easier it gets not to do it, but the urge will always be there. I’ve dramatically reduced the amount I do it because I know that people will see it and I can’t stand it when they do
Of course you shouldn’t cut. hey, if you have an addiction to this pain, go do something rough. Like rock climbing or rugby… or quidditch… haha, sorry. But seriously, find something that’ll make you all stiff the next day. Sometimes muscle pain will replace that need for pain from cutting.
Ive skated since i was 4 and ive stared competitve skating ill come homw with broken bones, bruises, stiff muscles and its still not enough apparently… And i cut on my birthday every year cause everyone always tells me ur birthday is the most special day ever, but when i was 5 my mama pinned me to the floor and screamed in my face sayig i was a horrible child. And it was on my birthday, every year since then thats wat ill do… I dont cut alot but i cut enough for Ember to worry about me… I have the urge…. Ive had it for 6 days and i cant do anything… All i can do is sit on the couch and literally get my little sister to put all sharp objects out of my sight an reach…
I understand skating is intense, but maybe you need something where you can tackle somebody. Or at least have physical contact with others. Maybe basketball, dodgeball… anything. It really all depends on what is appealing to you.
Sadly i cant do a whole lot i tackel my family members alot and i usually win, but i cant play alot of sports cause i have sever asthma 🙁 Thats y i chose skating cause its not much running its still alot of work but not as bad.. Sigh i wish i didnt promise that..