Why can’t I have a prince charming sweep me off my feet and cure everything that is wrong with me. Why can’t I have someone save me? I think today I came with the conclusion that I can not end my life as easily as I thought. With all these complications. Life is already complicated, and now death is too?? Fuck that. Sometimes I think about how I know I shouldn’t be happy. And there is no shrink that can convince me otherwise. It’s like Inception, the idea is already planted in my head. I shouldn’t be happy, but I can’t help but think.. what if someone comes out of no where and rescues me? What if they took all the pain away? Could I be happy? Can I? Even if these thoughts are only temporary.. they still mean hope. And hope.. is something very dangerous for someone who doesn’t know what to do with it. I am someone who daydreams of getting hit by a car when im driving. I am someone who cries when they wake up in the morning. I am someone who thinks about suicide notes. I am someone who is prepared to leave. So, why won’t you take me away?
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Because that would be murder. Not to be a smartass, but honestly, it sounds like your only problem is you. You implanted the thought that you shouldnt be happy into your mind, so there that thought sits and grows into an ugly weed that you can’t pull out. Only you can make you happy, sometimes you have to work for it. As for the prince charming thing, love isnt what they show in the movies, sometimes you have to wait, hell my aunt didn’t get married until she was in her 40’s and wasnt in a relationship her entire life prior to that, but shes happy now.
Well then, that’s an interesting opinion. However, it’s pretty clear you didn’t understand the concept or reason behind the post. Obviously I know the problem is me. It’s called venting. Also, there is no where on the post involving murder, so that seems a bit dramatic. I also mentioned the prince charming was a simple thought, I know love isn’t anything close to what they show in the movies. I’m not even looking for love. I just wanted to clarify these things, thank you for the comment though. I was just simply expressing the dream of me being taken away from problems and such.