I am so sick of this.
All my life I’m been invisible. An afterthought in people’s mind. Never the 1st choice. People always forget I exist until they need something. My two “best friends” just talk to each other in school and ignore me.
I realized a few days ago that I don’t have any friends. They don’t care about me. They don’t try to talk to me at all unless I say something first. If they text me, after I reply they never say anything back.
A few years ago we went to a field trip. Me and my two “best friends” misunderstood what a teacher said and went back on the school bus when we weren’t supposed too. Everyone was freaking out, and thought we had gone missing. They looked everywhere in the park. What no one even noticed was that I was with them. Not even the teacher fucking noticed I was gone. That hurt so much. On the bus ride home, which was long, I did an experiment. I didn’t say anything at all. Just like I expected, no one said a word to me or even noticed me until I started crying. That was when I finally realized.
No one gives a shit about me.
When i’m upset in school, a few people notice and just tell me to cheer up.
When someone “popular” and well liked appears to be just as upset as I am, it’s a huge deal and everyone in the whole class cares.
I have nothing going for me at all. I’m not pretty, I’m not smart, I’m not athletic. I know I’m worthless but I just wish people would at least pretend to care.
I can’t take it anymore.
I don’t want to kill myself but I don’t want to live either.
I can’t even tell anyone this. They’d act like they care, but in their head they would just call me an attention whore and that some people have it so much worse and it’s true but I just want to feel loved for one in my stupid pathetic life
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Well, some here may disagree, but i don’t think what makes a person valuable is the body they happen to be born into, or their aptitude for school work or sports, rather what makes someone valuable is their existence as an individual person. You are unique, you have character, emotions and desires: you are valuable. The world we live in is fast paced and consequentialy superficial, and sadly many won’t take the time to see past appearances, but you aren’t invisible.
Have you tried being proactive? Don’t just wait for people to talk to you, go out and talk to them. Don’t be passive, be engaging. Make yourself heard and seen. Don’t let the world ignore you okay? 🙂
I try being social with my friends. I try texting them. They don’t even bother to respond. I don’t have people over my house for personal reasons and no one ever invites me over there’s.
So there hate you. Or there shit. Can find a new group.?
It’s not other people, it’s me. I’ve been treated like this my whole life
Instead of texting you could try calling or asking in person. Perhaps you could try to find different people to associate with aswell.
Bullshit. It’s not you. Stop that shit. Why you think that.?
The people don’t care about you, unless you show them how much you care.
Try to show them how you care about their things. And they will show interest about you. But you will have another problem. Too much people liking you. This is difficult sometimes 🙂
cheers for the invisible kids. I’ll drink to that
Wow, you sound JUST like me when I was in school. Well let me tell you, it doesn’t get any better! Some of us are just meant to be ignored and forgotten I guess. I finally gave up on friendships and any kind of relationships for that matter my senior year in high school. I never text people, or even talk to people first. And i refuse to establish any friendships because people simply cannot be trusted. I wanted to chug vodka with sleeping pills so many times but I didn’t want to upset my parents, or go to hell. If you decide not to kill yourself, alcohol and weed are your best friends. They make life a lot easier!