i have been thinking for a while and i have stopped myself alot and i do have the support of everyone here to help me but i am sick of everyone at school and how they judge but i keep telling myself just wait one more day and every thing is going to be fine. i do my best too keep going but i see less and less of a point too keep going so i start too give up on the little things school work, how i look, finding friends, keeping my room clean. i realize that education is my ticket out of the house and away from my mom and her verbal and the sometimes physical abuse. when i am at school all i want to do is hide away from everyone and everything. when i am at home all i do is hide out in my room and think of ways that i can give up. i got my pills refilled today and i seem to start thinking about how it would be better if i just gave up already
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Yes, people are judgmental, yes highschool isn’t filled with the most sensitive or empathetic of people, but highschool is a small stage in your life. Four years at most and then you’re done. Don’t give up before you even get a chance to try and get out. Once you’re 18 you can persue whatever path you’ve chosen for yourself.(You can open a soup resteraunt or something) I think i’ve said all this to you before 😛 Sometimes it seems like the little things that are the hardest to resist, because they wear down at us gradually and consistently, but just think about how nice it will be to get away from your mom and find a home for yourself.
Education is ticket to getting out, to having a good paying steady job. Ignore everyone at school and do your best!!
you’re right i will be able to leave and be able to find my own place and move on. its just there is so many things that are wearing me away and wanting me to just let go. i am running on that little strength of hope and how my few friends would feel if i died… i just do not see whats worth in my life
at the end> i do my best to ignore it… words hurt
Make a choice about how you expect to be treated & treat yourself that way. People detect weakness & though they are a-holes, they often act on what they see in you…anything negative anyone has to say about you is about them. Make a choice about what you will and will not tolerate. Learn and practicing standing up for yourself.
It’s a life lesson for everyone.
You’re not running on a little strength, it’s a lot, it’s just that the world takes a lot of strength to live in. Not only should you ignore their words, you should also acknowledge their vacuity. What does it matter what they think? Be happy with yourself. If you leave now you will never be able to open your soup emporium.
First, prescription drugs are designed so death-by-overdose does not happen, and the makers dont get sued. Second, I sincerely hope that you stay tough at home and school.
Here are some suggestions that worked for me the day I laughed thinking my room would be my sepulchre: Make your room your sanctuary, so you can have a sense of relief when you enter and a sense of renewal when you face the new day. While you’re in there, redecorate until you’re satisfied, exercise your body, and train your (heart, mind, spirit) to do incredible things when you see a problem coming…
Of course it’s not easy, but so was learning to walk, read, and planning your immediate future. If plan A failed, there’s always plan Z99 😉
rooting for you. don’t know how things will turn out but do know that you can give it another day. I hated high school. life after high school was definitely better. I look back at high school and can’t imagine how I ever believed that anyone there amounted to anything.
thanks for all the love & support and mabey one day i’ll open a soup emporium until then i’ll always be lost and searching for hope in my life at the moment i have just had enough with all the crap and lies in my life