felling worthless

i fell worthless basical everyday people think that i am happy hyper girl they expect but deep inside i fell like shit like everyone hates me i struggle to learn i am a really slow learner i try my best. i hate everthing about me my body my eye my face everthing i wear jumpers in summer and leggings somtimes because i fell so fat and that people will judge me i hate getting notice by people i somtime fell like i want to be invisble i fell like no one cares about me no more i hate looking at my self in the mirrow i just so ugly and fat i just want to hide in a hole i try my best to keep my head up high and think postive but i cant take it no more i just dont like living no more i had so much thoughts poisioning myself i just dont know what to do in life anymore i just want to give up i get called stupied basical everyday and fat and emo sometimes i am so depress that i cant even walk outside ft out felling embrassed. and wearing jumper ft hoodies. i just want to talk to somone about how depress i am but i am to scared to i am scared to tell my parents they proble think how stupied and worthless i am and i am too scared to tell my friend they might think that i am stupied and proble wont care i have no other sibling or cousin there on the other side of the state i just dont want to live anymore :'(