life,,,why

why does life have to be so hard?some people think its so easy,or they say(it cant be that bad)them are the people who have family,and friends,people that care about them,and have never been hit in there entire lifes,lets see them close minded fucks try to walk in these shoes,them people that tell me that,wouldnt last a day,iv lasted 21 years,i cant say i survived,i thrived more then anything,i still thrive,i aint that lucky little 16 year old who has a mom and a dad to buy her a car and get her ,her drivers licence,i dont have the support for shit,i do everything on my own,since i was little,about 7,when you dont get comfort or hugs your entire childhood,thru adolecence,and now,that gap in your heart doesnt leave,mabey for some people,mabey all i need to fill it is a hug,i just want to cuddle with a humane being,why should i be there for my dad,he was never there for me,he says he needs me,ya only because he is sitting in a fucking prison,