I’m about to tell you the last thing you want to hear. I’m eighteen. When I was 14 my best friend killed himself. My role model. The person I wanted to be just like. Me and his family have never recovered. Neither has anybody who loved him. At the time I’m guessing ( NOBODY will ever know ) that he thought he had nobody. Boy was he wrong. If only he saw what it did to his family. His friends. Me.
Please, I’m literally begging you. Please reconsider. I don’t care what you say, people would miss you. People would never recover. People would never be the same. You aren’t alone. You may think you are, but you are not. The only person who can make you feel alone is yourself. You have your whole life ahead of you. You will bounce back. If you say you don’t have anybody, than I am here. I mean that. As a listener. I will spread your message. Email me anytime at defendhope@gmail.com I mean it when I say that if somehow I heard that you carried through with this I would be hurt. This is not the anwser. You WILL get past this.
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i’m sorry. Got to get over it. Do you feel guilty about it.? Reconsider i made my decision a long time ago. I guess i’m salfish person. I hope you get over your losing your friend. And stop blame in your self.
“Neither has anybody who loved him.”
If they loved him so much, why they didn’t see it coming, why no one helped him ?
“At the time I’m guessing ( NOBODY will ever know ) that he thought he had nobody.”
Maybe he had, maybe there was something wrong with him, that all you “loving and caring” people didn’t see.
“I don’t care what you say…”
That’s not a best way to convince people to your ways.
“…people would miss you”
1. I some cases – maybe, in some – no.
2. So what ?
“People would never recover.”
Some people that want to kill themselves, will never recover too. Why is it that their will, is less valued that the will of other people ?
“You aren’t alone.”
Yes we are. All of us. Suicidal or not. Some people just can’t\won’t see it.
“You have your whole life ahead of you.”
1. living != life.
2. Some people here aren’t angsty emo teenagers that got bullied.
“You will bounce back.”
Can I have some lottery numbers with that prediction ?
“You WILL get past this.”
As above.
“If you say you don’t have anybody, than I am here. I mean that. As a listener.”
Dude, I’ve been here only couple of days, but I know of at least one person thats more than twice your age. So please.
Connection Closed by Peer,
you seem very intent on defending your right and the right of others to feel depressed, alone, and suicidal. That is definitely your prerogative. You don’t have to change your pespective if you don’t want to. Defendhope, myself, and many others are just here to get people to realize they can reclaim their life and heal from hurt if they so choose to do so. There are people in this world that care about others for the sole purpose of seeing others succeed. I’m sure people have hurt you in your lifetime, and there will be others waiting to hurt you for as long as you live. BUT there are also people waiting to give you their love if you will accept it. Please know that all is not lost and you can smile a genuine, non-sinister smile again. I am not an emotional teenager, and I’m not sure why age is an issue anyway.
There is hope for you.
Here’s to that: “Third time’s the charm”.
@connection closed by peer
Why are you even here? Just to nitpick everything? Every post I see by you are the stupidest thing i have read on this website (yeah I’m new here too), you just go around and act like everyone is just some teen with angst. WE ARE NOT. So either try to help or connect to others or gtfo.
Actually, I read connection closed by peer’s rebutal to Hydden’s post, and I think it was rather well thought-out.
It’s too bad it’s not visible here.
To the admins, and other people in power:
If you once again trash my post, then may I suggest trashing all comments about comments\commenters, and not doing it on some random\side taking basis ?
Thank you.
So the answer is: “Frel you”.
Thank you for making it clear.
Connection, I’m pretty sure that posts are moderated by the people that made them. When I made posts, I could approve or disapprove comments made on them as I wished. It’s not the “admins or people in power” that probably trashed your comments but defendhope.
“Connection, I’m pretty sure that posts are moderated by the people that made them.”
“It’s not the “admins or people in power ”
One doesn’t exclude the other.
+ it would be a very wacky way to keep this place in order – some people come here just once, or too irregular to keep their topics in order.