I really don’t know how to start this,
I fell in love with a girl i couldn’t call my own. We had all these plans like getting married and all this. She was the one i want and she still is. She quit talking to me for about a minth. And i fell apart. I started cutting after not doing it for a year. She didn’t leave my mind. She was always there, we talked 24/7. And the thoughts lingered in my head and they never leave. She left without saying goodbye. I wrote her and she replied a week later. Saying she didn’t know why she did it or anything. I told her all i wanted to do was understand why she did this to me and everything..
We started talking on the phone again, i had explained it to her about how bad my cutting has gotten and we talked what seemed like forever,I was thinking about going to the hospital for a week now. I’m just scared shitless about it. We talked and she said it seems like a good idea and that i should do it. Then she finally told me she loved me.<3<3
I have a feeling she did it just cause to do it, and we haven't talked about it since then. I don't know if she does or not. But, she's one of those girls that won't say it if she doesn't mean it. So I', just confused. I really don't want to be alive Today. Or all this week. Maybe next week.
Does anyone have anything to ssay to me? to help me move on?
I would really appreiciate it.xD