What Do I Do Now?

I’m lost. What do I do now?

I am scared.

I’m lost.

I never knew it would get this hard.

When you get that evil person who is out to get you.

And destroy’s your happiness.

Every ounce of happiness I had. Was lost.

Now I’m lost.

I’m in a dark room.

I can’t find the light.

I can’t escape it.

Wouldn’t someone like to help me..

Mom?

Dad?

Grandma?

Family?

Best friends?

How can they help me?

I’m not willing to let anyone in.

I can’t let anyone in.

All people are good for now, is judging me, hurting me, leaving me.. and putting me down.

It’s like I’m a worthless piece of trash.

I see the blood running.

I don’t even flinch at the pain.

The pain feels soothing .

The pain feels normal.

Like it’s supposed to be there.

I have to hide the cuts.

So no one can see,

Just how effed up I am.

The medication isn’t working.

If anything…making me feel worse..

Why?

Why can’t it just make me feel better?

What the heck do I do now?